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Private
Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it, to get this close to these people. I don't really have a place. But I like them a lot so why not? We can be friends even if I'm not involved with their...other stuff. Hiro's a really great guy. I wonder if they listen to him as much as they should. But I also don't know what I'm talking about. Supposedly. I don't mind. I wish I could do more for her but I'm starting to think I'm already at my limit. It's not like I believe that usually but from an objective place, it's...sort of obvious.
I talked to him for the first time. I don't know what I thought I'd accomplish and I probably shouldn't have at all because now I want to talk to him more even though I know he's done the worst things. What's up with that?
I keep thinking about moving out but then I think I'd hate to not be down the hall if she wanted me or needed me or something. And I depend on her in my own way but I don't want that to end up becoming...something bad for her. I don't know. She's got other people who 'get' her in some ways more than I can, people with abilities. I get that. It's like...a club sort of, but not one you know you're a part of. It's just the people who aren't a part of it that notice at all. I think. I don't think I really want to be a part of it. It's hard enough to be normal. Right?
Lately I'm thinking about mom and dad. I still don't miss them. That's...probably bad? I just know they can take care of themselves and since I go back to when I left, they wouldn't worry, so...no big deal right?
It's kind of lame though, not having anything specific to do--aside from school. I still don't want to do that. Yet. Caspian is probably the closest friends I have here, besides Claire and that's one of the coolest things. It's also awkward. I wish I hadn't read the books a certain times. I know we could be friends either way, but knowing what happens is...really bizarre. It makes me feel like an intruder. And thaaaaaaaaat's how I know I'm over thinking everything probably. This isn't how I usually handle things.
This place might be changing me. That's the feeling I get sometimes and I don't know if that's good or bad or whatever. Maybe it's nothing.
idk my bff the City...okay or not.
I could filter this whole post from her but that's kind of like keeping secrets from her. Well, it IS keeping something from her. So...no go I guess.
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Yay a new job. For----yeah not going there.
Anyway, it's that time. Well no, it's not. THAT time is usually like, three in the morning when you're ridiculously bored and have nothing else to do but ask ambiguous questions. Sooooo...I'm early? Or something. And I'm curious.
What's your definition of a friend?
We're all from different places so I figure the answers might be interesting. You have to pick five things five, because I don't know, it's like, a magic number...Power Rangers.....etc.....idk from your life. Photos, CDs, whatever. Videos. Keepsakes. Anything goes.
What are they? It can be less if you can't think of five things.
Oh, and not people. Obviously people aren't things. Duh.
Song of the day/ post is: In my Life | The Beatles