Are you ever in a room full of people that you know don't like you and you actually feel weak and shakey. that is me right this moment. I don't know how healthy this experience is. I'll write more and explain later.

"she was trying"
that is my favorite quote of the day. She was trying to fight racism. I don't know whether she succeeded, but she was trying.
oh wait...

"it was worth trusting her intelligence"

Simone de Beauvoir has nothin on me son, and I hope that I don't loose it.

I am tired of absorbing what's around me. For it being the week before my period I have been surprisingly tolerant. Lets get something straight, your decisions are your decisions, don't fuckin put them on me when all I am trying to do is make you happy, be supportive and understanding by constantly tryin to do what you want without even accounting ( Read more... )

Monday May 1st, 2006
ATMOSPHERE
Ages 16+
$20 in advance
$23 at the door
Doors open 7:30PM
Show starts 8:30PM
BUY TICKETS NOW:The Catalyst, Santa Cruz

I turned 21. I feel older. I don't like how law makes me feel older. Things have definitly changed in the past year. crazy year. So i went to one dyke bar..The Lexington, which was like a smaller version of Mills...boo boo. And then to the White Ho in Berkeley which was less crowded and friendlier. Until some straight white guy lingered around me ( Read more... )

Back to school, bored already sooo....A picture of my new tattoo. It is part of the langston hughes poem "The Cross" in my grandpa Brown's handwriting. <3

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I feel like this break went by way too fast, but then again I kinda want to get into the swing of things again. My life feels like it's in limbo, tryin so hard to get the fuck out of certain ruts and then I can't quite make it. I'm havin trouble in almost all areas. On the other hand, i feel like there are things to look forward to, turning 21, my ( Read more... )

can we please talk about what this shit does to your lips.They are better now, thanks to Burts Bees.

woohooo vicodin and motrin

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tomorrow is my surgery. i look forward to blood, crying, and being alone...not to mention not being able to eat.

then i will be on vicodin until my birthday..nooo but really.

i'm done. I tried to ward off the drama but it came anyway, so i'm done.

I can't sleep.I've been watching movies for hours, in between work and Kaiser waitin for drugs....then a documentary on hip hop. I have a new found respect and a little crush on Atmosphere.I'm re-examining his rhymes in a new found light. The light of a white passing Black brother, or the light of his proclaimed queerness...maybe i misunderstood... ( Read more... )