it's been a long week.
here my week i guess
meriums bday=okay...
i really am terrible with groups of people.
always have been. probably always will be.
last sunday was music sunday at church. really quite honestly. i like being church better than sunday school. you can sit there with no one bothering you. in youth group it's like being watched. i don't like it. so instead last sunday i sat in church and listened sitting by my gma. she is a very nice lady. i wish i could get her something for xmas. but i got nothing.
monday i went to the office/consulting office more than i have ever gone my entire life. it was ridiculous. i felt so bad though. i lied down for the first time ever int he clinic. while i was there i had the teachers talk about sam and how outgoing she is. i am not outgoing. but still it made me want to smile cuz i could just see the smiles on their faces even though there was a wall between us. teachers probably don't say much about me expect she's quiet and a hard worker... which isn't true anyways.
tuesday
i send a card to chris through brittany. melissa refused to. i'm a tad disspointed in her but i knew that'd happen anyways. sorry girl if you are reading this.
and then i stayed up really late talking to sam online and stuff. i'm getting terrible at sleeping agian. :(
wednesday i went to the mall with sam. this was the first time subway boy wasn't there when we were. i knew the coincidences had to end soon. and then this night i stayed up agian online talking to joe.
i have no idea what thursday was truthfully
friday i went over sams
we watched liar liar and donny darko. i hope someone explians that ending to me. i only semi get it.
i accidently cut my palm on scissor on her icky cd case.
i felt so awful. it was bleeding a lot. i felt nauseus after a bit and thought i was going to throw up and pass out at the same time. some hosptial dudes come over and bandaged it up. everyone was quite proud of sam. only she kept calling my hand my arm. and there is a huge difference there.
i ended up getting 2 stitches and a tetnus shot.
saturday
i went and saw spanglish with sam and melly
that movie was totally ment for me.
adam sandler movies never ever dissapoint me. and this one had the perfect combo of emotional parts and comedy. very good.
only the ending could've done more for me. but i know it was meant to end like that. still i don't like having to think of the loose ends on my own anymore. i want them to just tell me lol. i'm so lazy.
when i came home i stayed up watching law and order with megan cuz ellen wanted to open mike's gift to us when he got back from the bnl concert.
ellen went to sleep so we didn't.
instead i had a nightmare
in it mike had two presents out for us. both spongebob. i thought the second one- a puzzel- was for me. i was ready to rip it apart with my teeth right then and there. but i rememberd the rest of the dream before.. i can't now. i do know in it i just left out of anger. even though that gift wan't mine. i got something else. then i was called back only they (meg and mike) were gone by the time i got to their car. so then i went a super long way to get something i supposibly dropped. and then went the long way agian to get to my ma's car....
my dreams are so screwed now.
today
we had a gift exchange at church. i feel sick. joe came over. i made him a cd :). it is freezing out. seriously FREEZING. i got to see merissa's puppy and it is absolutly adorible!! i want to call it wilbut but she named him tanner. he is so cute though. he wears a bell and waddles. but he'll just fall asleep in your arms.. aww.. i wish i had him
and i finally made erica's icon. i don't know if she'll like it or not.
i forgot stuff but i don't know what it was
but i typed all this with gloves on that sam gave me. they are red. so i'm sorry for all the bad tyops. hehe.
sorry if this entry seems boring. i'm a one of those odd moods where its all like "blah"
p.s. i still got my hostipal braclet on
meriums bday=okay...
i really am terrible with groups of people.
always have been. probably always will be.
last sunday was music sunday at church. really quite honestly. i like being church better than sunday school. you can sit there with no one bothering you. in youth group it's like being watched. i don't like it. so instead last sunday i sat in church and listened sitting by my gma. she is a very nice lady. i wish i could get her something for xmas. but i got nothing.
monday i went to the office/consulting office more than i have ever gone my entire life. it was ridiculous. i felt so bad though. i lied down for the first time ever int he clinic. while i was there i had the teachers talk about sam and how outgoing she is. i am not outgoing. but still it made me want to smile cuz i could just see the smiles on their faces even though there was a wall between us. teachers probably don't say much about me expect she's quiet and a hard worker... which isn't true anyways.
tuesday
i send a card to chris through brittany. melissa refused to. i'm a tad disspointed in her but i knew that'd happen anyways. sorry girl if you are reading this.
and then i stayed up really late talking to sam online and stuff. i'm getting terrible at sleeping agian. :(
wednesday i went to the mall with sam. this was the first time subway boy wasn't there when we were. i knew the coincidences had to end soon. and then this night i stayed up agian online talking to joe.
i have no idea what thursday was truthfully
friday i went over sams
we watched liar liar and donny darko. i hope someone explians that ending to me. i only semi get it.
i accidently cut my palm on scissor on her icky cd case.
i felt so awful. it was bleeding a lot. i felt nauseus after a bit and thought i was going to throw up and pass out at the same time. some hosptial dudes come over and bandaged it up. everyone was quite proud of sam. only she kept calling my hand my arm. and there is a huge difference there.
i ended up getting 2 stitches and a tetnus shot.
saturday
i went and saw spanglish with sam and melly
that movie was totally ment for me.
adam sandler movies never ever dissapoint me. and this one had the perfect combo of emotional parts and comedy. very good.
only the ending could've done more for me. but i know it was meant to end like that. still i don't like having to think of the loose ends on my own anymore. i want them to just tell me lol. i'm so lazy.
when i came home i stayed up watching law and order with megan cuz ellen wanted to open mike's gift to us when he got back from the bnl concert.
ellen went to sleep so we didn't.
instead i had a nightmare
in it mike had two presents out for us. both spongebob. i thought the second one- a puzzel- was for me. i was ready to rip it apart with my teeth right then and there. but i rememberd the rest of the dream before.. i can't now. i do know in it i just left out of anger. even though that gift wan't mine. i got something else. then i was called back only they (meg and mike) were gone by the time i got to their car. so then i went a super long way to get something i supposibly dropped. and then went the long way agian to get to my ma's car....
my dreams are so screwed now.
today
we had a gift exchange at church. i feel sick. joe came over. i made him a cd :). it is freezing out. seriously FREEZING. i got to see merissa's puppy and it is absolutly adorible!! i want to call it wilbut but she named him tanner. he is so cute though. he wears a bell and waddles. but he'll just fall asleep in your arms.. aww.. i wish i had him
and i finally made erica's icon. i don't know if she'll like it or not.
i forgot stuff but i don't know what it was
but i typed all this with gloves on that sam gave me. they are red. so i'm sorry for all the bad tyops. hehe.
sorry if this entry seems boring. i'm a one of those odd moods where its all like "blah"
p.s. i still got my hostipal braclet on