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[findawish]

i hate my mom. hate my dad. i hate my house. i hate the rest of my family. i hate there food. i hate their drama. i hate everything about them. i hate myself and what ive become. i hate what theyve made me. i hate what they say i am. i hate hoe some how im blamed for everything. i love stephan. and thats it...

<3ashyln

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[star_flakes]

hey babe, im working on getting a job ill help you out. im sorry i cant be there for you i really wish i could be to hold you, to let you cry on my shoulder if you need to, to take care of you...i want to be there for you im failing my job as a boyfriend...just like i fail everything...im sorry i want to be there for you i really do i want to be your everything and i want you to be happy... im just not doing my damn job! i want to be your knight in shining armour and carry you away from your problems... but i cant. i cant even get a fucking job!

after all that shit happened i felt empty like my heart was ripped out and i had to live without it. i was nothing i was looking for what ever i could find to just excape reality.... i started drinking alot to forget to leave this hell just for awhile then i would wake up back to this life this great life of what....SHIT! ive always wanted to be there for you and i cant be i hate myself for it. i love you ashlyn.... we've fallen distant and i hate it...i hate it so damn much!

i love you baby

[shatteredbelief]

Well if it helps, you can come live with me here in Wisconsin anytime you want, and as I said before, you're welcome to bring your lovely boyfriend. I have a MILLION places the two of you can stay. But why in the hell you would EVER want to come up here is beyond me.

I miss you and I love you both

<3,
Zoe

[star_flakes]

wow... thats some deep shit stephan