quick update

[finding_rae]

tired today. started to work out again... yes can we say roller coaster RAE?!! Matt and I are doing okay, I'm stupid insecure due to my past. and the thing is I have no reason to be with him. I need to learn to get over it. Have not seen Amber much, miss her. Marie dropped off the face of the earth and doesn't fucking return phone calls. wtf?? I'm

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[karmaeleon]

learning to "get over it" can be hard to do! maybe you need some think-outside-the-box approaches that might seem silly or absurd..

[finding_rae]

ya I think he's with me every night blah blah blah. it's just the insecurities from the past relationships that fuck with my mind. it wasn't till 4 months into one relationship that I found out what really was going on... just hard to change patterns of disappointment. that fear is still in the back of my mind I need to get the expectation of disappointment out of my perspective.
similar experience?