Well, he was there. Just as planned. And I cried. Just as assumed-by me and probably others. I want it to all be over. I wish we could just resolve whatever's wrong and get on with our lives. Or at least, my life. He doesn't really seem to care about much of anything. Tomorrow's Christmas Eve, I just want to be with someone special and do something ( Read more... )

Annoyed with myself, that is... A kid almost drowned today and I didn't do my job, I hesitated for a few seconds but I was too late and he was moved to the shallow end by the guys around him. You know how scary that was? Next time I won't hesitate.

Everyone tells me he's coming to our school tomorrow. How am I suppose to react to that? I haven't ( Read more... )

What happens when you try to defeat your problems? It pumbles you. Instead of trying to overcome and solve my problems, I've been trying to beat 'em. Well guess what Natalie, I-T    D-O-E-S    N-O-T    W-O-R-K!!!!!!!!!!!  And no, there is no bright side to look on this time. I still have so much to do this weekend and I probably will die because of ( Read more... )

Well my busy week came back to bite me in the butt! And now I'm home sick with a fever, soar throat, and a stuffy nose. Boo hoo. I feel like crap. I missed practice. and had to leave Natasha's. But I'll be optimistic about things and hope I feel better soon and that I get everything that needs to be done tomorrow. :-)

Well I was right, this week sucked...and probably will continue as so. I feel like crap. I wanna go visit Britney. I wanna be everywhere at once. I have this problem way too much. I wish you could like sleep while doing stuff, or gain energy without sleeping. Okay now I'm just talking crazy talk. I want Christmas to come, it's such a happy time of ( Read more... )

Okay so we're 2-2 so far. Monday we have a game so it'll be 3-2 pretty soon.

Tomorrow I have to wake up, bake stuff, go to kids day at 11:30 and then I have practice at 4:30-6 and THEN I have do to all that effing homework they gave me. I have such a busy-ass week ahead of me.  But yeah I can't really continue this update right now because it's "9"
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We have our first home game tomorrow night! I busted my fingers being a retard tonight at practice, so I'm icing icing icing. They hurt like a beech though, let me tell you what. I'm nervous though cause if they don't shape up by tomorrow I'm gonna suckkk. Should be fun though.

Another busy week ahead..yucky. Lots of school and practice...and maybe ( Read more... )

These tears refuse to leave my eyes without a fight...

I was reading through the past few month's entries and everything is so different now. Summer was like a dream and it's all over. I'm really glad I'm keeping a journal of it though because it meant a lot to me. It was the perfect summer; of new friends, new jobs, vacations, and just simple love. Time is such a painful thing ( Read more... )

:::::::::turn out the way i wanted, i didnt want it a certain way your the fucking control freak trying to change the way i am and your the one that couldnt let go of me crying your fucking eyes out and then say im too young, your the control freak thats why i broke up with you because you were trying to pusseywhip me and no one pusseywhips me so ( Read more... )