i miss kitty

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fuck. boy to i feel inadequate.

i decided that you should erase it. all of it anything that even relates the subject. i don't want to see it i don't want to be even more obsesive compulsive than i am. i am emotional shit right now.

erase. no trace.

boy how i hate this feeling
but i love this boy
how i hate what i see
but how my heart ignores
fuck.

i wish i could turn it around on him and let him see where i am coming from. why it makes me feel like shit. absoulte shit.

o well.

I can't go to sleep, i took a 7 hour power nap. damn it. fuck. and now i have nothing to do. i might read some of choke. why am i so jealous of everything. damn it. fuck. with that said ( Read more... )

when you think about it, sex is everywhere, in every day actions, no matter what you do you can't avoid it. But as natural as the whole issue is, there is something that still troubles me something that i can't get past... the whole idea that women are merely sex objects. in every form of advertisement, entertainment, manufacturing... etc. I can ( Read more... )

i have no good photos of myself. damn it. i have nothing of my new tatoo yet fuck. i will take some. promise.

Back to schoooool. Back to schoooool. I got my shoes tied tight. Back to shooool.

blah blah blah... i have been watching this cause i can't sleep. i feel so.... blah. evan was snoring. now he's not. i am horny and frustrated. i feel better he feels worse. school starts monday. i think i will look up stuff on ebay now. at least i can't be jealous of that. boys suck.

it felt like it didn't really happen. It just felt like another day where i just happened to get together with family and such. I really missed evan these past couple of days. I didn't realize that i was upset at him for leaving me on christmas until today. I'm not angry. just a little disapointed that he went away. christmas just wasn't the same ( Read more... )

now i can sleep...