all wonder sometimes, we can't help ourselves. rarely do we stop to absorb the full extent of chain reactions to one single, simple, naive decision. i do. it trashes my mind. no, i'm not talking about regret. there are clear evidence of the consequences that not only i suffer. this is about knowing and what to do with that knowledge ( Read more... )

tried. i did and if that wasn't enough, tell me what is because i can no longer see or hear and my tantacles are numb.

just want to run. . .

but i will never, just run.

catch my net, the slingshot is inside. i want you to hunt down what you can.

is your god, you coward? i want you to show me his heaven, even if its on a seaside cliff. where is your conscience, you bigot? i'm going to show you that your petulant rules do not apply in my world. you can run falsely gallant through my garden, but my guards will take you away to pin on my wood. you can show your cards and i will still move my ( Read more... )

limbs felt like floating oars, just wandering above water in uncertain directions. my breaths felt heavy, disoriented and clammy coming out of my throat. i don't think that i wanted this to happen, wanted this to take over, but somehow it had slithered its way into my life, into my heart. it consumed me like a red alert epidemic and it corroded my ( Read more... )

in the light, i wandered aimlessly.

demands to be identified, for the harvesting and nurturing of emotions in the land of anti-reality need to take rest. when fragility is overlooked, the pain starts. it is like so that we cannot run in circles, over and over again. being stripped of all things self, love becomes a left over product of unrequieted wrong. to not follow instincts, is ( Read more... )

i want to show someone my world, all of it.
i want someone to come and prove me wrong, i'm sick of being right.
i want to run, bare buttocks and all, into a lake while i have a hand to hold mine.
i want to know that the ceiling won't come crashing down any given second.
i want someone to laugh with me, when i fall down.

"had i not viewed my llife in the light of the ideal, its mediocrity would have been unbearable. that's how i saw things, when we met. you came into my life. you are my most exquisite friend. its very simple: i knew from the moment i saw you that we were standing on the same side of the world, and we then we talked all night. for all that, there ( Read more... )

know exactly what's going to happen next. bring it on.