im feeling really fucking low not using punctuation is harder than i thought it would be for some reason i feel i cant capitalize either my life is crumbling while im making new friends and enjoying new experiences im just so lost and confused more than ive ever been i dropped out of high school i still dont think im one of THOSE im graduating with a high school diploma from adult/night school i dont have a job i sit at home on livejournal basically every day im such a fucking waste i live for the weekends during which i drink too much and make out with boys (among other things) thinking im filling up some hole i always viewed promiscuity as an insecurity as someone just wanting to feel wanted and not having a neccesarily healthy way to go about it but i AM wanted i am loved and needed im not sure why i do what i do most of the time it feels good and i feel young and free and i see no problem in it but sometimes i go too far and it leaves me feeling so much more empty than i did before
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before i die i want to get lost, really and truly lost and not worry about being found for a while
ps this is kara, the late night text messenger in the show me state--here's my journal though i dont update it as often as id like. i cant seem to pay my bills or get it together long enough to make something with myself... regardless, you should add me back it will be grand i promise
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my life is crumbling while im making new friends and enjoying new experiences im just so lost and confused more than ive ever been i dropped out of high school i still dont think im one of THOSE im graduating with a high school diploma from adult/night school
i dont have a job i sit at home on livejournal basically every day
im such a fucking waste
i live for the weekends during which i drink too much and make out with boys (among other things) thinking im filling up some hole i always viewed promiscuity as an insecurity as someone just wanting to feel wanted and not having a neccesarily healthy way to go about it but i AM wanted i am loved and needed im not sure why i do what i do most of the time it feels good and i feel young and free and i see no problem in it but sometimes i go too far and it leaves me feeling so much more empty than i did before ( ... )
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here is what i think
if you push a bomb down far enough into the ground
the whole earth will explode
as opposed to a small ground fire
the results will be horrficly catastrophic
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ps this is kara, the late night text messenger in the show me state--here's my journal though i dont update it as often as id like. i cant seem to pay my bills or get it together long enough to make something with myself...
regardless, you should add me back
it will be grand i promise
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