I've been trying to fit in for so long that I'm not sure now whether I ever was truly me. Hell, I'm not too sure as I sit here typing this, whether there actually is a ME. Everything I do fits my facade. Even when I don't need a facade, I use it.
I feel it is then safe to say that eventually, the facade you create to shield yourself from the cruelty of the human race takes over. You become your shield, and then it doesn't shield you any more.
The only thing I can remember about what I was before I adopted my current me is that I was bloody arrogant. It scares the hell out of me, looking back at what I was. I do everything I can to not be considered arrogant now... and yet, I think I'm not doing enough.
Tell me nick, you knew me in 3rd grade before I adopted my current facade... was I arrogant?
I am ever so glad that you came into my life. sometimes you really do have wisdom beyond you years, hon. :) Really you state precisely what no one wants to see or admit. It's lovely.
Thanks for that moment of "ah". *hugs you* I'll see you next week!
Wisdom's pretty useless as far as one's own life is concerned.. really the sort of thing that benifits others more than it ever will you.
I think my frankness is liable to get me into trouble, though. Given that nobody likes hearing some most of what I say.. it has a tendency to leave me sitting alone twiddling my fingers after everyone has stormed off in a huff. Bloody lucky I haven't been hit over it.
You're welcome, though, for the 'ah' and that.. uh.. I wandered into your life. I'm not sure that's thankworthy.. but thank you? Or you're welcome? ..Something.
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I feel it is then safe to say that eventually, the facade you create to shield yourself from the cruelty of the human race takes over. You become your shield, and then it doesn't shield you any more.
The only thing I can remember about what I was before I adopted my current me is that I was bloody arrogant. It scares the hell out of me, looking back at what I was. I do everything I can to not be considered arrogant now... and yet, I think I'm not doing enough.
Tell me nick, you knew me in 3rd grade before I adopted my current facade... was I arrogant?
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sometimes you really do have wisdom beyond you years, hon. :)
Really you state precisely what no one wants to see or admit.
It's lovely.
Thanks for that moment of "ah".
*hugs you*
I'll see you next week!
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I think my frankness is liable to get me into trouble, though. Given that nobody likes hearing some most of what I say.. it has a tendency to leave me sitting alone twiddling my fingers after everyone has stormed off in a huff. Bloody lucky I haven't been hit over it.
You're welcome, though, for the 'ah' and that.. uh.. I wandered into your life. I'm not sure that's thankworthy.. but thank you? Or you're welcome? ..Something.
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