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[finstergrrrl]

this is the anatomy of my divorce:

brain. it knows objectively that this is the best thing for both of us, that we have been trapped for years in our mental models of one another and of our relationship, that our fear of each other and ourselves has grown until we cannot be kind and fair. this seems to make no difference.

eyes. ache from crying

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[givemelaughter]

This is really sad, but still...this post is beautiful.

[finstergrrrl]

thank you. :) that means a lot.

[twostepsfwd]

this shit is so hard. i feel for you. i went through most of this stuff with my own divorce, and did not come out unscathed though i was able to get my shit together and end up healthier and saner and in a way better relationship. which you will be able to do, too. for now, it's one day at a time.

[finstergrrrl]

thanks, sweetness. i do believe this is going to get better - i have to. i am not quite convinced yet that i'm not walking away from my soulmate, but i guess i have to give that time, too.

and you seem *so* much happier now, for which i am immensely glad. not that your life isn't hard a lot of the time, but you have a serenity about you in your writing that wasn't there before - you always seemed like you were fighting a current. perhaps i have the same to look forward to? xoxo.

[pennywhistle]

*hugs* I'm so sorry you're in so much pain right now :-(

[finstergrrrl]

thanks. it comes and goes, you know? it's just a strange state of being. *hugs back* i'm glad to get to read your adventures in talence and bordeaux!

[finstergrrrl]

thank you. all sympathy is appreciated. i think perhaps you can relate.