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[finstergrrrl]

someone should probably ask me "so what have you been doing for x amount of time since we spoke last?" because i keep meaning to update. but the only things that make me update seem to be little random yet specific thoughts. so here's my random yet specific thing for tonight, and i think i've mentioned it before, but it gets its own post today: i

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[softanimal]

yes to all of it. i've had this my whole life, so much so that i barely even notice it anymore. occasionally i'll realize that i'm humming out loud, or someone will ask what i'm humming - thereby making me realize i've been vocalizing part of the constant symphony in my head. ha.

the only way i turn it off is by putting in a CD and listening to actual music; that, yes, usually drowns out the music in my head.

sometimes it's annoying as hell. i don't always enjoy the crap that gets stuck in my head. this morning i had about five measures from a haydn symphony playing on repeat in my brain, over and over and over again, and i finally had to blast some pj harvey to get that shit to stop. :)

[finstergrrrl]

heh, i definitely relate to that :) one of the components i wish i'd mentioned in my post is that i get very strong emotional attachment to music. i mean, i think everyone probably does to a degree, but right now i'm listening to radiohead's "there there" and it's almost...it's as though it's *allowing* me to feel, it's a conduit somehow. i don't really know how to describe it any better than that. i get depths and heights that i just don't get most of the day. there are other stimuli - great photography, being out west, being fully immersed in something *real*, i dunno. the music is what makes everything real and keeps it surreal at the same time. now i'm rambling ;p

on a related note, how are your guitar lessons with pamela going?

[jinxremoving]

ha. i get it. i'm not really bothered about it though.
this answer is kind of unhelpful, isn't it? anyway, what have you been doing?

[finstergrrrl]

lol no, not unhelpful :) sometimes i really have no clue whether people share my experience or not. i was talking to my friend geoff at work about music and he's totally mystified by me - he doesn't collect music in the same way at all. he really wouldn't own music, i think, on his own - as it is, what little he has, he stole from his brother - he mostly listens to the radio. which is cool, i mean, the radio is sometimes a relief from my head :) but i have to be able to listen to whatever is going on with me emotionally, y'know? i need to have it at my fingertips. apparently if i'm in a car listening to music and it gets turned off, i physically start shaking! i had to be told. i didn't know.

what have i been doing! it's a good question :) and i just started to answer and the answer became really long, so i'm making a post just for you!

[leftbase]

This happens pretty much all the time. Right now I'm listening to Blue Stone's Worlds Apart. Except I'm not. But I did for real last night.

It's usually, but not always, a replay (and a re-replay and so on) of whatever I last listened to. I'm not bothered by it either.

I sometimes hear people complain about having an annoying tv commercial jingle stuck in their heads, so I guess It's fortunate that I watch very little tv. And that I only listen to music I like!

[finstergrrrl]

lol about the jingle. yep, i'm the same way. what little tv i do watch gets looped just as you're saying. i tend to get in my head the last *full* song i listened to; so if i finished a song, started the next one, and turned off the radio, i'll get the finished song in my head.