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My BFF was lying to me. She fucking LAY to me. Till I've got text message from her grandma today, I was thinking she is with her sick kid (W. is 3 years old). She even wrote to me that she is with him! And like some kind of idiot I was defending her all week: "No, she isn't with her boyfriend who can't decide if he wants to be with her or not, no, she didn't abandon school, she's been taking care of her child...". I told this our form-master yesterday! Though he looked then funny at me I didn't pay attention to it. Today he has spoke with her grandma and - because she likes me - she told me the truth. Truth is that J. was all this time with her "boyfriend" (call him B.) and not her son.
Since September she has been behaving ridiculous. I know she is in love and all but this love won't give her job or money. B. is younger than her and I remember how boys from my class were behaving in his age - We don't need girlfriends, they're stupid... etc. Of course she wasn't listening to me when I said this although it's true - he only wants someone to hug and kiss, nothing too serious.
I wrote to her on gg (something like yahoo!messenger) when she was on-line. Before this I had sent her text message that I know she lay. And you know what she has answered to me? I don't have to excuse myself.... I didn't read more. I didn't read text message from her either. Like I predicted now she is angry at me because I told her truth. Okay, maybe calling her bad mother was little too much but how I should call someone who wasn't paying attention to her own kid and left him with her grandparents? How?
I just can't believe she is almost willing to throw away our friendship. I'm pretty angry, yes, but I still like her... Wrong. I still like old J. who was talking, joking and meeting with me. Who was spending DAYS talking about her lovely son. Who wasn't play hooky to meet with her boyfriend. I was trying to talk with her, really. However it's seems she wants to be with B. who is trying to be unfaithful to her when he can...
I just don't know what to do. J. is so stubborn sometimes... See, I'm doing this again. I'm worrying about people even when they don't want this. Fantastic.
And something I've listened to for almost week:
Click to viewNoct is amazing <3