Just a thought...
This weekend has been the most interesting rollercoaster. To be honest, I'm still bleeding. I laughed, I cried, I nearly drank myself into a coma. I feel raw, like I've got no skin and everyone sees through me. It's so weird, and I'm a little scared. I allowed myself to be affected, to be moved. I drink too much. I smoke too much. I don't eat, or sleep like I need to. I live for beauty, but find I'm dying for it instead. I know tomorrow never comes, and yet I'm terrified of it. I hate myself, but I love you....I laugh too hard and smile too wide to hide the fact that maybe I'm not real and that I don't exist. That maybe I never did.
That maybe you don't either.
There will be a day when it's easier for you not to know me. And I understand baby, and it's ok, but that day is today. So I've packed your things, in the bag by the door. Don't look at me like that, you're not the only one leaving here. As strange as this is, you didn't see it coming? You see, the beauty of being alone is that I no longer have to care what you think. And isn't that a lovely thing? I was just thinking.....
That maybe you don't either.
There will be a day when it's easier for you not to know me. And I understand baby, and it's ok, but that day is today. So I've packed your things, in the bag by the door. Don't look at me like that, you're not the only one leaving here. As strange as this is, you didn't see it coming? You see, the beauty of being alone is that I no longer have to care what you think. And isn't that a lovely thing? I was just thinking.....