how random is this: i am not gonna be around tomorrow, but if you turn on channel 67 at 10:30 am, you will see me, yup... im gonna be on bronxnet haha.. you better watch it, its gonna be repeated at 10 pm..

anyway.. i am very conffuzled and i really, really don't know whats going on.

it kinda sucks... caring about people. i don't think its really worth it.

i don't think this is really an event... i don't think it is even worthy of being a journal entry..At an all time low. and i just seem to be reaching out to all the wrong people.

i wish music played every time i ran!

and finally... a good day :)

something is wrong with me... i know that i have to be awake all day, and that i have a million things to do.. and yet i insist on falling asleep late and waking up at 4 in the morning, not being able to go back to sleep..watching mtv2 and trying to force myself into some unconscious sleeplike state.... guess ill have to get thru this day with a ( Read more... )

beleive in me... help me believe in anything, cuz i wanna be someone who beleives.

but one thing i do beleive is that Sam and Eddie rock.

and that i just always seem to be in the right place, but at the wrong time... and it SUCKS MAJOR MONKEY!

it is impossible to go right without not going left... hence, it is impossible to go in every direction assigned to me... So then maybe i shouldn't be looking every which way, but straight ahead of me... or maybe i should just plow forward and not look at all... or maybe just go to sleep before this starts making less sense.

and if you knew everything about me- every fear every scar, maybe if you could read me, than we wouldn't be written in different languages.

one of those... i should have just stayed in bed kinda days...