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Hey Everyone!!! its been quite a while since I've up-dated so here I go..
Well Friday was the TAG dance at the KC Hall..
It was sooooooooo(more O's) much FUN!! I saw Andy and BJ there.. and that was cool! And Skeeter was there!! ..and that was totally awesome!.. We danced twice.. and before that I had gave Stevie a hug ..and he was like "I'm jealous!" so I gave him a hug too.. and then he was like "You have to dance with me at least one time!" and I was like "Alrighty!" ..and for some odd reason we were holding hands and Stevie was just looking at us and then Skeat grabbed his hand and we were all holding hands together and it was funnie!! .... Lets see.. Shamira and Ashley got in a fight.. Then Brock and Blake had some drama about Shayla.. Me and Telisa were acting so fucking retarded it was unreal!! .. Now for the best part of the night ... STEVIE!! At first I didn't think he was there and I was talking to Shayla and I turned around and BAM! .. There he was with his georgous self!! When they played the techno music he was break dancing ..and like me and Bethanie say ... "*gasp* OH MY GOD!!" ... When I tell you I screamed my ass off for him because I was cheering him on sooooo much, I mean it.. I have a soar throat from it! haha!.. But my gosh was he SEXY!!!.. no wait.. not sexy .. he's GEORGOUS!!!! ahhh I just can't get over how unbelievably adorable he is!! I kinda poked him on his shoulder when he was by me and he looked up at me and I waved at him and said hi and he did the same!
More happened but we need to move on to the next subject =)
..It was better than nothing but I kinda just wish things were the way they were before he and Tesa got together.. My gosh! She's changed him sooo much! .. He was my BEST FRIEND!!! And now we don't say more than two words to eachother.. okay .. Four words at the most!! I'm so nervous aroud him now. I don't understand why, but I hate it!! ..
"..I miss hearing his voice, even if it's through the phone..
I miss joking around with him..
Giving him the silent treatment and telling him mer and grr..
I miss us talking to the people inside eachother's heads..
It might sound stupid, but I feel like I lost my best friend when she stepped into the picture..
Now I just wish I could erase her.."
That's in my profile. That's exactly how I've been feeling for a month and a week(that's how long they've been together!) Dude, this guy so seriously driving me fucking insane!! He obviously has no idea how I feel about him! And I hate that!!
He has to know how I feel. There's no way he couldn't possibly know! He has to know! .. But if he knows then why doesn't he acknowledge it? Why doesn't he realize I'm here? Why can't he see me? Am I that unimportant to him for me to appear invisible?.. Should I give up on him and move on? .. I can't do that.. I'm attached to him.. I can't let go that easily. It would be too hard and it would crush me. I'd go into a depression that would be undescribable..
I just don't know how to handle this situation anymore!! I'm going crazy!!
I guess I just give up!!! = /
I don't know anymore..
*!HELP!*
Well I'm going..
Comment.. Don't.. Do Whatever.. I don't give a SHIT right now!! = /
Well Friday was the TAG dance at the KC Hall..
It was sooooooooo(more O's) much FUN!! I saw Andy and BJ there.. and that was cool! And Skeeter was there!! ..and that was totally awesome!.. We danced twice.. and before that I had gave Stevie a hug ..and he was like "I'm jealous!" so I gave him a hug too.. and then he was like "You have to dance with me at least one time!" and I was like "Alrighty!" ..and for some odd reason we were holding hands and Stevie was just looking at us and then Skeat grabbed his hand and we were all holding hands together and it was funnie!! .... Lets see.. Shamira and Ashley got in a fight.. Then Brock and Blake had some drama about Shayla.. Me and Telisa were acting so fucking retarded it was unreal!! .. Now for the best part of the night ... STEVIE!! At first I didn't think he was there and I was talking to Shayla and I turned around and BAM! .. There he was with his georgous self!! When they played the techno music he was break dancing ..and like me and Bethanie say ... "*gasp* OH MY GOD!!" ... When I tell you I screamed my ass off for him because I was cheering him on sooooo much, I mean it.. I have a soar throat from it! haha!.. But my gosh was he SEXY!!!.. no wait.. not sexy .. he's GEORGOUS!!!! ahhh I just can't get over how unbelievably adorable he is!! I kinda poked him on his shoulder when he was by me and he looked up at me and I waved at him and said hi and he did the same!
More happened but we need to move on to the next subject =)
..It was better than nothing but I kinda just wish things were the way they were before he and Tesa got together.. My gosh! She's changed him sooo much! .. He was my BEST FRIEND!!! And now we don't say more than two words to eachother.. okay .. Four words at the most!! I'm so nervous aroud him now. I don't understand why, but I hate it!! ..
"..I miss hearing his voice, even if it's through the phone..
I miss joking around with him..
Giving him the silent treatment and telling him mer and grr..
I miss us talking to the people inside eachother's heads..
It might sound stupid, but I feel like I lost my best friend when she stepped into the picture..
Now I just wish I could erase her.."
That's in my profile. That's exactly how I've been feeling for a month and a week(that's how long they've been together!) Dude, this guy so seriously driving me fucking insane!! He obviously has no idea how I feel about him! And I hate that!!
He has to know how I feel. There's no way he couldn't possibly know! He has to know! .. But if he knows then why doesn't he acknowledge it? Why doesn't he realize I'm here? Why can't he see me? Am I that unimportant to him for me to appear invisible?.. Should I give up on him and move on? .. I can't do that.. I'm attached to him.. I can't let go that easily. It would be too hard and it would crush me. I'd go into a depression that would be undescribable..
I just don't know how to handle this situation anymore!! I'm going crazy!!
I guess I just give up!!! = /
I don't know anymore..
*!HELP!*
Well I'm going..
Comment.. Don't.. Do Whatever.. I don't give a SHIT right now!! = /