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[firefly_53]

happy fourth!

.....i'm not doing too well :( this break up is finally sinking in. lemon-juice-in-little-cuts-style. i've only slept about 4 hours a night for the last... fuck i have no idea. this has been a big drunken blur for me. which has the nice bonus of being drunk with people who care.

downtown last night i ran into a girl who quit Fado recently. she left her long term boyfriend, some suicide drama on his part went down, and she halted her life to take care of him. only to find out he's sleeping with someone new. salt...wound... seeing her last night was relieving. she looked about like i do. scattered, unkempt, being held loosely together by that lovely glue alcohol.

woke up in tears. i feel so lame for not having the liberty to make plans on this holiday. irony. or someone to kiss under fireworks :( that's the saddest part.

oh well. this whole never being sober plan seems to be a good enough distraction.
rock bottom, look out below.

go see a parade. eat a hot dog. play with fireworks. happy america day, loves.