update

[firefly_squid]

I'm listening to another "NPR: Science Friday Podcast" but I have to stop in a minute cause I've run out of "tedious, no thought process needed" work for a little while :( Damnit... I love listening to talk radio... wish I had more times to listen to it

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[vexvim]

i have felt the same way this weekend.

[firefly_squid]

I've felt this way for a long time but kept thinking I had to figure it out myself... but I think that's why I've been so stagnant... I don't know how to figure out some of the information I need to get in order to progress further...

so that was like my big DUH epiphany last night after I smoked... "oh yeah I don't need to do EVERYTHING all by myself... it's okay if I ask for help from other people every now and again... it doesn't make me weak to admit when I can't do everything in the world all by myself"

so that's my new pre-goal to gain advice/help from people who are better at this planning life stage than I am... I've only got practice at going with the flow and making the best of situations that come my way... I gotta get better at planning and being goal oriented...

I'm trying to get better at taking control of my life instead of just reacting.