Comments | fireflypkb: Malajusted dyslexia

fireflypkb

Malajusted dyslexia

Feb 27, 2005 00:37

So, I find myself oddly depressed, but not. That makes absolutely no sense and that is fine, because most days I make less sense than most people. It's weird. I feel like I'm sad, but I have no reason to be sad. Then I shrug it off and find something else for my mind to occupy ( Read more... )

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naun February 28 2005, 09:48:18 UTC

you have a way of reminding me it's gonna be ok :)

we need to hang out damnit! call me :)

fireflypkb March 1 2005, 05:55:52 UTC

We do need to hang out. work sucks right now so I don't know when I'll have an available moment :((((((((((((((((((((

naun March 2 2005, 07:52:51 UTC

my works sucks too :(

well you must spare me some time on my bday in late april, cos i am mourning the turning year of three zero with a fair amount of alcohol and friends :D

janele27 February 28 2005, 16:42:04 UTC

your last sentance is really true.

fireflypkb March 1 2005, 05:54:05 UTC

I had a really weird moment the other night where I realized that a lot of things I seem to write about reflect how other people feel even if that is not how I am directly feeling at the moment. Strange I know. So, I guess I want to just put it out there as a comfort to other people.

I dunno. i ramble now.

dra22554 March 1 2005, 03:35:25 UTC

The funny thing is that I'm in the cycle of going through these emotions right now. I'm depressed about not having true friends, and I'm blaming it on things like being an Army brat, which is part of the problem. It's just that I've got a great life as far as God-given talents and gifts go; a great family, a great Church family, a fair share of intelligence, and the like. I guess I just feel unconnected to other people in any real way. The feelings might not be the same in specifics, but we seem to be sharing the same basic . . . emotions? . . . thingy doogers. Anyways, now that I sound like a five year old, I just have to remember that the friend that will always be there no matter how hard I push them away is God. So, instead of focusing on and trying to fix the other relationships, I've decided to build that one eternal one first.

fireflypkb March 1 2005, 06:00:36 UTC

I was a Navy brat :-P. True friends are definately hard to find. One thing you need to realize is that most of your "true friends" you won't find until after high school. My best friend right now and truest friend I've ever had lives in Portland, OR now, moved from Iowa about 6-8 months ago and I just knew. I never went to high school with him or knew him at all until I was his room mate.

I always feel unconnected. Trust me, everyone does. It doesn't matter how many friends, family members, girlfriend/boyfriends, etc you have. There will always be a time when you feel like you don't belong or something to that effect. That's what makes us human. The need to need and be needed.

God will always be there. I don't feel it all the time, but even in my lack of physical type prescence feeling... I know He's there. I depend on Him whether I want to or not. Kicking and screaming most times too.