So, way to still be in Dallas, Jess.
"I don't want you to be sad or mad, Jess." Hmm, well then don't fucking ditch me, asshole. "It works out better this way, because now we get to leave earlier and don't have to worry about having you back in time for Rocky on Saturday." Yeah, works better for *you*, selfish prick. But I'm not bitter. I was just really looking forward to the trip. Now I wonder if I am ever even going to get to see Jody again. They told me that they'd go again soon, blah blah, that I could save my money for something else, yadda yadda. I don't give a crap about the money, it was my friends that I wanted to see. I really needed a vacation from the people that I see all of the time, and my friends in NOLA are good people, and being around them makes me happy. Its been months and months since I've been out there, and I miss them all terribly. I have been preparing for this trip and looking forward to it for so long. *cries*
The worst part isn't even not getting to go, its that my friends, the only people that I ever stop being a hermit for and hang out with these days, are such utter shitheads. So for those of you out there that I don't see or call enough that *are not* shitheads, which, last I checked, is most of you, come try to pry me out of my little hermit cave, I'm lonely and bummed out.
After Rocky, I went through a 1/4 of a HUGE bottle of Everclear by myself. James, Lil Joe and I all went to James' hotel and played drunken cards, drunken Trivial Pursuit, which you shouldn't turn into a drinking game when you are drinking Everclear and are already stupid, and we put in the Buffy Musical soundtrack and sang and danced along. It was hot. lol. Jeez, I'm a loser. It was awesome. We passed out while watching Michael Jackson's "Moonwalker," which is about the best thing ever, then got up at 2 when DJ came over and made loud noises and let the sun in. *hissssssss* Evil. Then Joe dropped me off at PRIDE Parade, which was the SHIT!!!! At least the first few hours were, but I was in crazy heels, sleep deprived, dehydrated from drinking, hadn't eaten, didn't have H2O, and I ran out of steam like a motherfucker about 4:30. I stayed until almost 8, when Carlos came and picked me up, and I told him about all of the crappy things and cried for a bit before we got in his Caddy and went to my place. I ate and we started watching Fight Club, but then I had to pass out. I went to bed at 10:30 last night, and I have not been able to get a full nights sleep in weeks, not even if I have gotten sloppy drunk, not even when I took night-night pills, nothing, and I've been exhausted. I hoped since I was too tired and achy to move, I'd sleep at least 8 hours, but I was hoping for 12. I woke up at 5 am. What the ghei? I was so pissed. And tired. Had to take sis to school at 8:15. Now I am avoiding things that I need to do. But I'm gonna go do 'em now.
Pride was cool while *I* lasted, Kelly and Amanda were there for an hour and a half or so, and were helpful and very nice company. I met a girl named Colette who seemed pretty nice, and she liked me alot, which was cool. I was trudging back from the strip to the park where they had the after-festivities (for the 2nd time, in EVIL heels with blisters and no motor control), and I was just chattin' on the phone with Matthew about why no one else on Rocky was there, and I hear a voice from this group of people that I pass exclaim "Jessie!" I turned around, and there was Alex!!!, who I totally am twitterpated for. I got off the phone with M so quickly that it offended him, and tried not to make an ass of myself to her. She totally gave me her number and was all wonderful, and said she and Sue were coming to Rocky on Saturday, which I am uber-excited about! yay for Sue and yay for Alex! Keep your fingers crossed that I don't come across as a loserfacemoronretard, because I'll cry. This is the first person that I have had any kind of spark thing with since Matthew, and I am really excited and completley petrified.
The worst part isn't even not getting to go, its that my friends, the only people that I ever stop being a hermit for and hang out with these days, are such utter shitheads. So for those of you out there that I don't see or call enough that *are not* shitheads, which, last I checked, is most of you, come try to pry me out of my little hermit cave, I'm lonely and bummed out.
After Rocky, I went through a 1/4 of a HUGE bottle of Everclear by myself. James, Lil Joe and I all went to James' hotel and played drunken cards, drunken Trivial Pursuit, which you shouldn't turn into a drinking game when you are drinking Everclear and are already stupid, and we put in the Buffy Musical soundtrack and sang and danced along. It was hot. lol. Jeez, I'm a loser. It was awesome. We passed out while watching Michael Jackson's "Moonwalker," which is about the best thing ever, then got up at 2 when DJ came over and made loud noises and let the sun in. *hissssssss* Evil. Then Joe dropped me off at PRIDE Parade, which was the SHIT!!!! At least the first few hours were, but I was in crazy heels, sleep deprived, dehydrated from drinking, hadn't eaten, didn't have H2O, and I ran out of steam like a motherfucker about 4:30. I stayed until almost 8, when Carlos came and picked me up, and I told him about all of the crappy things and cried for a bit before we got in his Caddy and went to my place. I ate and we started watching Fight Club, but then I had to pass out. I went to bed at 10:30 last night, and I have not been able to get a full nights sleep in weeks, not even if I have gotten sloppy drunk, not even when I took night-night pills, nothing, and I've been exhausted. I hoped since I was too tired and achy to move, I'd sleep at least 8 hours, but I was hoping for 12. I woke up at 5 am. What the ghei? I was so pissed. And tired. Had to take sis to school at 8:15. Now I am avoiding things that I need to do. But I'm gonna go do 'em now.
Pride was cool while *I* lasted, Kelly and Amanda were there for an hour and a half or so, and were helpful and very nice company. I met a girl named Colette who seemed pretty nice, and she liked me alot, which was cool. I was trudging back from the strip to the park where they had the after-festivities (for the 2nd time, in EVIL heels with blisters and no motor control), and I was just chattin' on the phone with Matthew about why no one else on Rocky was there, and I hear a voice from this group of people that I pass exclaim "Jessie!" I turned around, and there was Alex!!!, who I totally am twitterpated for. I got off the phone with M so quickly that it offended him, and tried not to make an ass of myself to her. She totally gave me her number and was all wonderful, and said she and Sue were coming to Rocky on Saturday, which I am uber-excited about! yay for Sue and yay for Alex! Keep your fingers crossed that I don't come across as a loserfacemoronretard, because I'll cry. This is the first person that I have had any kind of spark thing with since Matthew, and I am really excited and completley petrified.