so im at fredonia, and i was looking forward to using the tv in my room....i kind of wanted to watch ER, but im guessing the series is done for now..i dont know though, its making me sad!!!!...i need my ER!....oks well im gonna take a shower and read alil....

so im at fredonia, i was accepted last weds. and ive been running around ever since. i have a nice rommate which makes the college experience that much nicer. only bad things, i dont know the buildings, so ive been getting lost, my lil cot/bed thing has an indentation, and it really hurts. i havent been getting enough sleep bc of it...which is why ( Read more... )

yea, im watching napoleon dynomite on comedy central. ohhh im soo sleepy, only bc having a period takes alot out of a person. so i was frustrated the other day, which i still am, but its under control now. but wat i dont think i wrote was that i got a tattoo with my girlie lisa. its really nice, kind of scabbing up right now, but mostly it itches ( Read more... )

yes...im upset, and with good reason...i have fucking working my ass off trying to get into fredonia, and not getting sleep bc im soo fucking stressed out......im mad bc i dont even see jamie as much as i had hoped we would...only bc if i dont fucking get in....i know we wont see eachother even more!!!!!!....wtf....can someone just give me a ( Read more... )

well......i just got done with a very depressing IM conversation with my best guy friend. im soooo upset that hes stuck in iraq. i feel even worse that i cant connect with him, i cant feel the things hes feeling, i cant feel the pain and guilt and grief and anger that he feels. all i know is that when he comes back, the guy i once knew will not be ( Read more... )

so its after 5am, and i am awake bc i cannot fall asleep. this weekend i had my first of many wilk traditions!...i was with jamie and his family this weekend, and it was amazing!...i had such a blast just eating, and talking, and watching the young cousins play around and the fathers sleeping in the living room, the mothers and older children ( Read more... )

so this past week was very hard to put int eh past. a lot of stuff happened and a lot of tears were shed. i write this to hopefully bring the pain out of my body and so maybe i can put it in the past, to never remember it. a lot of words were said this week, and i feel the only way for me to get this out of my system is too just write it, and get ( Read more... )

so this entry will be short, cuz im oober tired ( Read more... )

so, its almost 4 in the morning, and im sitting up in my bed actually crying. crying bc im so stressed from being sick. crying bc i wish i could scream, but obviously cant. crying bc i miss jamie sooo f'ing much. crying bc thursday(today) is my last day of classes and im so sick that i couldnt even finish anything i had planned, and i have a ( Read more... )

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