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Title: Untitled
Pairings: almost KiHae, KiChul, SiChul
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, drabble
A/N: This is in Donghae's POV. "You" = Kibum. "He" = Heechul, though I think that says that in here. >_<
Ummmmmmm, yeah, my first fully angst thing. It was a shitty day so I was in an angst kinda mood.
I wish I wasn’t so optimistic. I wish I hadn’t gotten my hopes up all to have it blow up in my face. I don’t know what the fuck you were trying to do by acting like that around me. I thought you really liked me. I really did. I guess I’m just an idiot. A hopeful, stupid idiot who should really just get a fucking clue.
I mean really, I knew you still liked him. I thought you were trying to move on though. Everyone knows that he doesn’t like you like you like that anymore. In fact he even promised Siwon that they would get together. Not that I’m really surprised. Heechul was always a flirt, but I thought he was tired of you. I thought he had gotten over it.
He knows I like you. He actually offered to help me. I really have to laugh at how stupid I am. How could I possibly believe that he wouldn’t pull shit like this. How could I possibly believe that I would be anything but a replacement to you. That’s all I am; a replacement, second, and not worthy of anybody.
What hurts the most is that I thought that for once I wouldn’t be just a replacement. I thought that I actually had a chance with you. I thought you actually liked me for who I am. I thought that I was finally going to get a chance at happiness. I really thought you would be the person to make me happy. I thought that maybe I could make you happy and maybe I could be someone you could depend on; that’s all I wanted.
I guess I thought wrong. I’ll never be anything more then second for you. I’ll never be anything more then a replacement. I’ll never be worth anything to anybody.
… And I should really jus accept that, because I’ll never be more then that.
Pairings: almost KiHae, KiChul, SiChul
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, drabble
A/N: This is in Donghae's POV. "You" = Kibum. "He" = Heechul, though I think that says that in here. >_<
Ummmmmmm, yeah, my first fully angst thing. It was a shitty day so I was in an angst kinda mood.
I wish I wasn’t so optimistic. I wish I hadn’t gotten my hopes up all to have it blow up in my face. I don’t know what the fuck you were trying to do by acting like that around me. I thought you really liked me. I really did. I guess I’m just an idiot. A hopeful, stupid idiot who should really just get a fucking clue.
I mean really, I knew you still liked him. I thought you were trying to move on though. Everyone knows that he doesn’t like you like you like that anymore. In fact he even promised Siwon that they would get together. Not that I’m really surprised. Heechul was always a flirt, but I thought he was tired of you. I thought he had gotten over it.
He knows I like you. He actually offered to help me. I really have to laugh at how stupid I am. How could I possibly believe that he wouldn’t pull shit like this. How could I possibly believe that I would be anything but a replacement to you. That’s all I am; a replacement, second, and not worthy of anybody.
What hurts the most is that I thought that for once I wouldn’t be just a replacement. I thought that I actually had a chance with you. I thought you actually liked me for who I am. I thought that I was finally going to get a chance at happiness. I really thought you would be the person to make me happy. I thought that maybe I could make you happy and maybe I could be someone you could depend on; that’s all I wanted.
I guess I thought wrong. I’ll never be anything more then second for you. I’ll never be anything more then a replacement. I’ll never be worth anything to anybody.
… And I should really jus accept that, because I’ll never be more then that.