It been a while
Hmm its been a while since posts, somehow i think i should go back and
look at what i last posted. Eh ill do it later. One thing before we
start, this is a bit of a weird post that ive been wanting to do for a
while so it might contain, Shitty spelling (hmm), Time of badness, and
all different feelings in the one blog.
Well i guess its nice to see that you chose to read on.
Anyway to the point, as of late ive been a little bit all over the place, theres alot goin on in my life at the moment much of which i am not happy about and cannot change which angers me more than anything. As you all might know i dont like not being in control of things (yes im a control freak i admit it) and its even worse when im not in control of the most important thing. MY LIFE. In all fairnes its not all bad, but its not all good either. My good friend shelley is having a crap time at home for reasons i will not say, and i havent spoken to her in a while to see how things are goin, this worries me as i worry about her alot, and the fact that i can talk to her just makes me even more concerned. I was gona walk down there yesterday but i dident know if she would be home, or if i would make things worse. We may not be goin out, but i still worry bout her like when we were goin out.
Then there is my Ex girlfriend, me and her broke up with the idea of no hard feelings, she even get me tickets to BDO, then my venturer leader rob who has actualy employed her tells me that she has told him we are still together. I dont realy know what her take on this is but its something i dont realy wana be concering about, once again another that is frustrating me. I have so many friends but with most of them, i still dont know where i stand, and of all of them she is possibley the most confusing (but at the same time arnt all women?). I just dont know what to do anymore. My sister asked me the other day would you ever conseder goin out with her again, i just walked away cause i dident realy know the answer. I guess it was a case of i dont want her to leave me again cause that would be something that would realy hurt, but in the same sence i cant just walk away from an 18 month relationship and say well good luck with life and not wonder what they are up to. IM SO CONFUSED
I was watching the movie "Two Hands" possibley my second favorite australian movie (Dirty Deeds comes first) and there is a quote in it that just stuck to me. At the begining of the movie this guy is talking about how him and his brother got Ying-Yang tatoos, he was explaining the meaning of the YingYang symbol (at least what he thought about it) "Something that's good can still have a little bit of bad in it, and something that's bad still has a little bit of good. " Until recentley i couldent realy make much sence in relating this quote to real life then it hit me. Its weird how it happens, one mineut you are just doing things for no reason then you are thinking about it. This realy messed me up, especialy last night.
Anyway putting all that crap behind me. I got an apprentiship which i start next year so i guess this will possibley be one of my last posts while being a student at LHCS, and i must say im gona miss that shit hole. Not the school its self. But all my friends, ive seen how people have reacted to people when they leave and personaly thats the only thing im worried about. Will people talk to me when i go?, Will people wana see me when i go?, What will i do if i dont like my apprentiship? just these questions and about a milion other scare the crap outa me.
AH WELL
Anyway ive gota go to a carrols night at Engadine so ill finish this post aother time.
Shaun "Firestick" Dennis signin out *Salutes*
Well i guess its nice to see that you chose to read on.
Anyway to the point, as of late ive been a little bit all over the place, theres alot goin on in my life at the moment much of which i am not happy about and cannot change which angers me more than anything. As you all might know i dont like not being in control of things (yes im a control freak i admit it) and its even worse when im not in control of the most important thing. MY LIFE. In all fairnes its not all bad, but its not all good either. My good friend shelley is having a crap time at home for reasons i will not say, and i havent spoken to her in a while to see how things are goin, this worries me as i worry about her alot, and the fact that i can talk to her just makes me even more concerned. I was gona walk down there yesterday but i dident know if she would be home, or if i would make things worse. We may not be goin out, but i still worry bout her like when we were goin out.
Then there is my Ex girlfriend, me and her broke up with the idea of no hard feelings, she even get me tickets to BDO, then my venturer leader rob who has actualy employed her tells me that she has told him we are still together. I dont realy know what her take on this is but its something i dont realy wana be concering about, once again another that is frustrating me. I have so many friends but with most of them, i still dont know where i stand, and of all of them she is possibley the most confusing (but at the same time arnt all women?). I just dont know what to do anymore. My sister asked me the other day would you ever conseder goin out with her again, i just walked away cause i dident realy know the answer. I guess it was a case of i dont want her to leave me again cause that would be something that would realy hurt, but in the same sence i cant just walk away from an 18 month relationship and say well good luck with life and not wonder what they are up to. IM SO CONFUSED
I was watching the movie "Two Hands" possibley my second favorite australian movie (Dirty Deeds comes first) and there is a quote in it that just stuck to me. At the begining of the movie this guy is talking about how him and his brother got Ying-Yang tatoos, he was explaining the meaning of the YingYang symbol (at least what he thought about it) "Something that's good can still have a little bit of bad in it, and something that's bad still has a little bit of good. " Until recentley i couldent realy make much sence in relating this quote to real life then it hit me. Its weird how it happens, one mineut you are just doing things for no reason then you are thinking about it. This realy messed me up, especialy last night.
Anyway putting all that crap behind me. I got an apprentiship which i start next year so i guess this will possibley be one of my last posts while being a student at LHCS, and i must say im gona miss that shit hole. Not the school its self. But all my friends, ive seen how people have reacted to people when they leave and personaly thats the only thing im worried about. Will people talk to me when i go?, Will people wana see me when i go?, What will i do if i dont like my apprentiship? just these questions and about a milion other scare the crap outa me.
AH WELL
Anyway ive gota go to a carrols night at Engadine so ill finish this post aother time.
Shaun "Firestick" Dennis signin out *Salutes*