Reflection on Life
Well i know this is my second post on 1 night and i barley manage to get one post a week in but there is a lot of crap going through my head at the moment.
At the moment i dont know what to feel, i realised the other day i dont realy have any friends more companions now normaly that would even concern me but for some reason it does. I dont know eather its the fact that i never realy got along with people right off or people just chose to keep their distance from me. Or even the other way around.
Ive been reading this book in english "Breaktime" by Aiden Chambers the more i read it the more i thought that was close to exactly how my life is panning out. And it realy distressed me. i have no idea why but for some reason it did and that i am worried about. I do however recomend the book to anyone who wants to read it.
I know i am normaly saying how well me and amy are going, but for some reason i dont think thats the case anymore. I think she might have actualy lost or is losing intrest in me which is a major problem cause with out here i colapse. She was what got me out of my depression and with out her im nothing. and i dont want to lose that. i dont know what im goning to do. I dont know what it is im doing wrong.
My work life is going even worse than my love life. I have no job my buisness consists to 4 clients and ive been doing it for about 6 months now. so i have no source of income or anything. Its because of this i owe somemany people money, norman and peter being the worst.
School also isent making things much better. I hate even more people than i did last year and its driving me mad. So many people are changing and alot not for the good. there are also people there who only turn up for the social benifits and in turn dont care what they get as long as they can turn up. Which pisses me off even more cause they are the people that the teachers focus all their attention on and the rest of the class falls behind. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Anyway im off work to do assignments to finish and work to find.
Nite All