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[firstd1mension]

What a strange feeling... lately I've been teetering between immense clarity and deep despair. Most of the people I know (aka girls) are entering into relationships all at once. Must be a spring thing. At any rate, while on one hand I'm a bit envious, I've had the option presented to me on several occasion and have consistently declined. I'm in

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[anomalis]

i think i felt something very similar through 2002 and had the realization this post is about sometime in early 2003. now i'm back. all of me is back. i am myself again. for me it was almost solely art that saved me. it's what i am, and for a while i got too caught up in "life" to remember to pay attention to the things that make it livable. the beauty is there, and it's being able to see it that makes a person feel like themselves, i think. what good you are to anybody doesn't have to matter when you have yourself. you can get it back.

sorry for the uncustomary delay

[firstd1mension]

I've been off livejournal forever now... but I never got to thank you for the kind words. I know what you say is right. I heard an inspirational oratory yesterday on TV by the great contemporary philosopher, Lisa Simpson, about how happiness may be found in a flake of snow, or the spirals of a galaxy. I remmeber a time where I felt it, and right now I feel like I can only see it. It's there, it's in front of me, but that love is just not there. I have faith it will come back to me. It came back when I fell in love this May. It came back when I went to Grad School and felt such a sense of pride and newness. I just wish it wasn't so contingent on outside conditions. I know that's not how it's meant to be.

I Love You Brian

[neonphilosopher]

i hope sence im here you never feel that deep sadness agan. cuz i want to be in your life as long as you can stand me.
your so beautful mind, body, and soul.
and i love every part of you.

[lessthanliza]

[Edit] I get it now.. Not sure if the email I have is current.. So if you didn't get the last two.. Email me, s'il vous plait (there.. you can correct my French this time). I had a long day and didn't realize I touched a nerve. I formally apologize.