Went to bed right after work at 6. Didn't get out of bed til 9 in the morning. Nauseous. Pounding headache. No more all-nighters.

Stayed up again last night trying to finish out the thesis... so close! And yet, so far. I should have had this handed in on Monday. Hell, I should have had this handed in last year ( Read more... )

At first, I erased the belittling comments that Angel-ass' friends left for me... but then I decided that that was a form of censorship, and it kind of detracted from the whole thing, so I went in and reposted the said comments under Anonymous. It's something I can look back on when I'm feeling morose to get a charge out of ( Read more... )

To someone who may or may not read this (Angel ( Read more... )

Well, I feel like I've effectively pushed almost every person out of my life in one way or another. I'm sick of the fakeness, and I think I just want to be a loner for a while. I don't really, but I just need to nuke my current social life and start over. Open myself up to new people, if any come along. I'm just displeased with the current lot ( Read more... )

Stayed in the office till 3 trying to work on my thesis. What I end up doing is playing on the internet, waling around aimlessly, reviewing interesting files, and so forth. I am so work-averse it's ridiculous, but I'm in hardcore denial. I mean really, to stay up night after night *trying* to work but just lolly-gagging endlessly... craziness ( Read more... )

I coined a term:

Hyperdivinism (n): a psychological disorder in which the subject is prone to making irrationally extreme conclusions about themselves or the future based on temporary present conditions.  etiol: hyper- to a great degree divinatio- prediction (Latin)

Well, after much frustration and woe, I finally rubbed some proverbial Miracle Grow on that empty space under my dick and grew some balls, which led me to talk to Lisa (the Executive Secretary) about how I felt, and that I wanted to become more involved in the office operation rather than to just be stuffed in the corner. So IT WORKED!!! I am now ( Read more... )

So I get back the folder I sent my boss with 2 memos, which both requested feedback. No feedback. What message does that send to me? I take it as "just sit in the corner and do nothing till I need you for something." =o( I definitely need a new job... I'm thinkin office work is not for me tho. Maybe I could put my NRME degree to use and do ( Read more... )

I think I decoded another of my mental issues (LOL) This one involves always comparing people to myself. I think when I meet people or when I'm around them, I waste too much time comparing myself to them. Like just now, the printer guy from A&Z Printing that did the Annual Report stopped by, and he's this short little Italian dude in his late ( Read more... )