Forgive me for my mood had been quite introverted and reflective the last few months. Mainly the last month, more so the last few weeks. I keep thinking about life ( Read more... )

I think both parties are signs of the fall of this once great nation. Both parties have declined to nothing more then henchmen for the "people" they represent. People? or Companies, Tycoons, Robber Barons. Whatever you want to call it, these "people" are obviously very wealthy and influential. Captains of Industry, the Pentagon, C.I.A., etc. ( Read more... )

Life has been really good for the past year now. Been a roller coaster with it's ups and downs, but most of the downs were blessings in disguise. How blind we are when we first let our emotions dictate to us. I realize just how full of love and emotion I really am. The empty me I used to be obsessed with is merely a distraction aimed at separating ( Read more... )

A list of demands to the universe and it's master ( Read more... )

I know why you guys can't stand me. Why so many just down right hate me and think so little of me. I know why I hate my self. I'm a piece of shit, stubborn, good-for-nothing, asshole. I don't get people who like me or love me, because they do just that. I don't get my cousin Khalil or Ian or all the kids at the Boys and Girls Clubs because they all ( Read more... )

Every time my parents go out of town and I am truly left alone with only my self to keep me sane, I sit here, not quite crazy, but not quite right. It's just weird how just something as simple as your company can change everything is as little as a week. When they leave it's like certain things that were calm and settled suddenly surface. The past ( Read more... )

I want a big family. They will love me for me and that is that. I want a big family so I will never need friends for anything. Just Church, Community, and Family. I don't understand things, so many things, yet why try. My peace lies in death, unless I can make some for myself. Some of you will take this personal, others might make it all about them ( Read more... )

God,

give me the serenity to except the things I can not change,

the strength to change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference.

Amen.

I sit here, realizing why I smile so much when drinking, why I laugh so much in general, and why alcohol is considered a depressant. Slipping back down into the pit, the beasts breath echoes, and reaching out and sifting scales. Hells mouth wide open and savoring the coming moment, when I and it become one, a digesting of heart and soul. I hide my ( Read more... )

Some good news. ASU Telecommunications is going to train me and hire me. It's a year round and student friendly position. You can work as many hours as you can and it's right next to school and church. One other great thing is that it's a job I can work through school with and even move up the ladder at. Other then that, I got a few jobs in lingo ( Read more... )