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I see men come and go
But there'll be one who will collect my soul and come to me
Two-thousand miles away
He walks upon the coast
Two-thousand miles away
It lays open like a road
Dear God, life ain't kind
People getting born and dying
But I've heard there's joy untold
Lays on that open road in front of me
i went to the ocean. i walked in the shallow water and felt peace seep in through me feet first, rising up to my legs, into my abdomen and finally reaching my heart. i stared at the grey storm clouds and wondered what it would be like to just be by the water all the time. i then retreated to the car and blasted pj harvey while drawing out a picture i call "the day the sun was brighter than the moon". perhaps i shall scan it in a bit later and let you see what i've been working on. earlier i drew up a picture of the angel of life while the boys walked around Nans comic book store.
when we left i felt as though a part of me had been restored, as though the natrual order of things had balanced out.
last night as i walked to dorin's apartment i saw a female black cat with a baby bird in it's jaws, i noticed the baby bird was alive and so hurridly i swatted the cat and she let go. i begged gaib and dorin to help me save the poor thing but both of them assured me that this was "the natural order of things". in my head i knew that to be true but in my heart it was me being unable to save yet another baby. when i told gaib this it disturbed him greatly and i think he felt bad about not being able to help the bird.
lately the littlest things set me off and the littlest things make life better. one of those things that makes life better is text messaging with blackpage all day. that and getting phone calls from him when i ask him to entertain me. *snugs* you are teh r0x0rz curtis....
not much else to report on so i shall end this entry. i need to shower, i smell like the beach and smelling like the beach while you are on the beach is alright.. smelling like the beach away from the beach is just gross.