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at 65, she's been through so much that she could tell stories forever. she diabetic. becuase of it, shes got problem all over. probably with anything you could think of. she can barely feel her feet, she just had a mouth operation, heart condition, and blood/digestion issues of diabetes. shes on so many medications so often each day that her purse has become a personal medicine cabinet. the pain that she must go through to even get out of bed is scary...but she still finds it in her to wake up every morning and spend 5 days a week cleaning someone else's house, cooking, taking care of two kids, and driving from here to hell and back for a family that's never really been one to appreciate much. but even through all of it, she could be the most believing person that i have ever met. im tlaking church EVERY sunday, prayers up and out the ears, even like christian music singing. everyday was a new lesson about how much "god is watching out for us" and "how much god cares". shes the lady that could never be mad at anything at all, shes the one that no matter how much life put on her...she was never thinking about herself...it was always how she could help someone else cuz they needed it more. and you know what all her believing and trusting in GOD got her? it got her rearended and ran off a road and into a lightpole. now shes lieing up in a hospital with pains all over, having scans n tests done all over. crying. we dont know if shes ok. i dont know anything.
FUCK THIS BELIEVING SHIT. i didnt believe before...and obviously "GOD" doesnt want me to believe now.
SO HE CAN BLOW IT OUT HIS FUCKING ASS FOR ALL I CARE.
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