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and in the end, my only apology lies in the hand of the imaginary. and in the end, i only apologize to my childhood thoughts, because ive let them down. im sorry for the monster ive become, but if its the only thing i can say truthfully, i swear it that i wake up with a good heart each day but simply just dont have the patience for the ignotance of those around me. im sorry i cant be your perfect image of selfcontrol, but for once ive put myself first, cause once again im scared of being trampled under the feet of peoples lies. but i am sorry, for the useless bitch it seems ive become. im sorry for letting the world down, and im sorry for not fixing the worngs of my life. but whats done is done and ill lose no sleep over my words or actions so hold your breath and save yourself the trouble cause none of your shit will phase me. do what you want, war whatever you will, in the end youll see me sitting on the sideline with a grin on my face, cause ive gripped teh reality that happiness comes in truth. so for those of you that say what you dont think and think what you dont say, you get my respect because it takes alot to live without anyone knowing the truth about you, but for those that say what they think and think what they say, more respect because its harder to tell the truth when it could hurt someone but the truth needs to be said, whether it be in hate, love, anger, greed, pity, or respect. let them hate you for loving the anger, greed, and pity you DONT feel for respecting what other people should know.
and im not scared so i wont talk to YOU, ill talk to MEGAN.-->
i may be bitchy whne im mad, but hey, youre not one to talk. (and just a lil FYI, im like, disgusted that youd actually bitch about the concert for weeks because its unfair that one person couldnt be on the floor--you couldnt just be grateful that you were gunna go (who cares where the fuck you are) -- WELL IM FUCKING SORRY I COULDNT GET ENOUGH TICKETS FOR THE SOLD OUT CONCERT...so yes, you did do something to me. not to mention that you would bitch at jamie for doing absolutely fucking nothing just trying to be nice and make the best of the situation...shit doesnt work that way DARLING..not with me at least.) but shnuks...even tho its kinda of your drama, ill be glad to take it the hell out of you life, that way you can worry about explaining your next lil soap opera to the rest of the world cause ill just never understand..
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happy birthday fleischy babbbbyyyy...a day late sorry lover. I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU! <33333333333