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fistface

PLEASE READ.....HELP

Jan 08, 2005 04:17

Well, let's see.... here I am at home, Shaya'a asleep and my parents are out of town and well, I don't know I'm really emotional here lately... I don't know I just don't know how I've become the girl that I have. I mean look at the old me, I mean, I've always been popular and in THE CLICK.. I mean which most people want to be but that doesn't make ( Read more... )

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crzylgs January 8 2005, 15:48:03 UTC

You can be that person you used to be (which by the way I loved) funny, and the "fun" kind of wild...if you know what I mean, when you had fun being stupid and saying dumb things, you were that person I could stay on the phone with all day and talk about nothing* sing to, and laugh to, and cry to* and mostly you knew about, and were close to God* and I know I strayed, I definitely know, and I'm not completely the person I used to be, but lately I've realized that you can't get anywhere in life that's going to make you happy WITHOUT God IN your life* and I know "partying" and the "other thing" lol seems fun, but unless you're in a committed realtionship, and it actually is going to mean something, you're going to regret it* however, you can't change the past, only learn from your mistakes and pick up from where you left off before* and I know you know this but God is on your side, no matter how far you drift away, he's gonna be there, waiting for you to admit to your mistakes and try to do right next time. He's not going to punish you ( ... )

fistface January 8 2005, 19:01:18 UTC

Thank you so much for the comment..it realy means a lot to me... I'm actaully bawling right now, that's exactly what I needed and you have no clue how much I miss ya... and thnaks for the advice, it truly is exactly what I needed. I jsut don't know what's wrong with me now..

Love you

xcherryxtwistx January 8 2005, 16:11:05 UTC

Pollie, I know exactly where you are coming from. There are SOOO many things that I regret from last year..you know all of them* :/ And I have also realized lately that a good guy isn't just gonna want to use you for sex and marry you.. it doesn't happen that way...I guess you just have to wait for it.. i'm kinda doing that myself. I've decided that i'm not having sex again until i'm married. Simple as that.

And you can become a better person and have a WONDERFUL relationship with God... you've just gotta ask for forgiveness like Meg said. I'm trying to do the same thing myself. I'm VERY ashamed of the things I have done..b/c now every guy I know is only talking to me for one thing and one thing only. It really sucks.

I'm ALWAYS here for you no matter what* Anything at all you need* I feel as if we're going through the same thing here.. I would LOVE to be a little girl again... the good little kid that never did anything. I'm ready to be her again.. LoL* But u know where i'm at*

I ♥ U!

♥Lells*

fistface January 8 2005, 19:06:37 UTC

Thanks hunny, teh thing I hate most is not having the respect from guys that I use to have, I mean now everyone just talks about me to my face, behind my back, or one of my friends guy's told her she couldn't hang out with me b/c I was a whore.... OK, that is CRAZY casue you all know that isn't me...ya know... I don't know, right now I think I just need to be single till I learn to love myself again and then I'll let Mr. Right love me... but I'm just an emotional wreck.. I can't stop crying... I jsut don't know..

Love you

heather_duffy January 9 2005, 06:13:08 UTC

Pollie, Pollie, Pollie. Where did my "old sweet pollie" go to? :( *haha ( ... )

fistface January 9 2005, 07:36:07 UTC

awww hunny that made me cry...everyone is just making me cry.. I didn't even know you read my LJ, LOL, let alone would write that AWESOME comment... I miss you too, I miss how we were inseperable and how we could get up and do ABSOLUTELY nothing but have the best time and laugh our butts off..it's crazy how things change and I truly do hope that me, you, Meg, and Shaya can be those four girls again..it would be the best thing in the world.. some of the best times of my life were with you guys and especially you... you knew me better than anyone up to 11th grade, and your exactly right we were "THE CLICK", its crazy how its not like that anymore.. if you had asked me three years ago I would have told someone they were crazy if they said that we weren't going to be best friends anymore.. I'd been like SHUT UP.. but it's strange how people manipulate you into thinking things that aren't true.... How if your so and so's friend you can't be this person's friend cause they don't liek them... I don't know high school is just so DRAMATIC and ( ... )

crzylgs January 11 2005, 23:39:38 UTC

I totally didn't even see this comment* but you speak *SO* much truth* and I'm bawlin' like a mad woman now* you guys don't know how much I miss each and every one of you all* like you, heather, I don't have someone that I can TRULY sit down and have as good of a time as I did with you guys* and I miss that so much* my days are pretty much the same, and I mean EVERY day* I miss how we could sit down and play donkey kong, or do nails, or how you'd stick your nasty toes in my face* haha jk.* but I miss it, we ALL four need to get together sometime* I think we'd have a blast~! and I think we need to make it a point to not let each other slip away, I mean we're all going in seperate directions, but there's never gonna be a group like us again* let the past be the past, and make the future something awesome! how's that for "lifetime") haha Our friendshipS are never gonna be like that again if you truly think about it* really well maybe they will, but we shared some special times!...okay, so now that my face is COMPLETELY blood shot red, ( ... )

fistface January 12 2005, 00:30:21 UTC

Awww hunny I BAWLED too, I told ya about it, I thought you read the comment..LOL.. I TOTALLY agree, us four are SO going to have a slumber party at my dorm room one night REAL soon...=) Just tell me when you girls can do it and I wil talk to my roommate Ash and get her to stay at her Grandmothers that night... I love you all and I am SO glad I wrote that entry, it REALLY brought us closer!

Love you

PoLLiE

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all4therainbow January 9 2005, 23:25:50 UTC

Okay Pollie...first and foremost, chill the hell out and smile ( ... )

fistface January 10 2005, 00:59:50 UTC

Awww thanks hunny..your exactly right... I just need to be the true me and if people don't like me..OH WELLL.... I don't care anymore... your right individuality is what makes people like you, and well I just need to show them the funny and smart Pollie that all you all fell in love with..haha..I just need to buckle down and figure out what I want to do with my life.. it would be a lot easier with you all with me, though...LOL... I miss and love ya too..oh, and are you coming to UVA wise this semester???

PoLLiE

all4therainbow January 10 2005, 23:02:02 UTC

Yep I'll be at UVA@Wise next semester.
See ya there, I hope!

Love ya,
Nicole