amanda and orla being in new york is pretty much as wonderful as I hoped. very, very drunk, silly, lots of long talks, inside jokes, homeless people, DUMBO, the brooklyn bridge, drunk dials, new york pizza, shopping, walking, walking, walking, hangovers, no sleep, union square, everything. great great great ( Read more... )

ugh, last night was hilarious. stoned fancy dress-up dinner parties are a great, great, great idea. me trying to perform in public was really stupid ( Read more... )

home again ( Read more... )

things are pretty much the same. Im kind of looking for a job, but not really. Im enjoying the city and the beautiful weather. I try and get myself lost to see if I can find my way back and Im getting much better at it. I wear slutty clothes to work because I enjoy the attention and Im trying to love the way I look. and I sometimes do ( Read more... )

my heats no longer on ( Read more... )

im worried about all of you for different reasons ( Read more... )

"whenever my consciouness was quickened, all those early friends were quickened within it, and in some strange way the accompanied me through all my new experiences. They were so much alive in me that I scarcely thought to wonder if they were alive anywhere else, or how ( Read more... )

I dont know how to stay in contact with any of you. Im busy. and youre busy. and im lonely and depressed and guilty. and I dont know how to fix this. alyssa, chelsea, amanda, tucker, orla, katie, sophie, everyone. how are we going to do this? I dont want to fucking disappear. you are my very favorite people but Im exhausted and running around and ( Read more... )

oh wow, I have plans for friday, saturday and sunday night. and these plans dont include a 40, sex and the city and sweatpants. and they include one date with my manager ( Read more... )

yeahyeah, megans back but not returning phone calls. I can see my breath in my apartment because I cant get anyone to come turn on the heat. I went to bed last night wearing my winter coat and scarf, underneath 2 blankets and a sleeping bag. and a girl was raped IN MY BUILDING because someone was careless and didnt lock our front door. I called my ( Read more... )