And I have to wonder if I truely deserve it.

I feel depression starting to eat at me.
There are so many things I can deal with... but the few I cant seem to attack all the time.

I think I caught my first lie of the new season....

When you expect something, and it doesnt happen... you are dissappointed.
When you hope for something, and it doesnt happen... you are hurt.

Number 2 knows what I am talking about.

Im tired... and thats just about it. I worked 9-7 today, and it will be 9-930 tomorrow ( Read more... )

I didnt sleep at all last night ( Read more... )

I want to be closer than a kiss ( Read more... )

The overwhelming feeling that I am being taken advantage of, and taken for granted ruins my thinking...

I wish I could feel different... but I cant.

Maybe I should just accept it... but this is something that comes along with giving.

I just wish for one I could receive... even though I am not used to it.

I need to apologize properly to Ashley. I let things not relating to our friendship get to me to the point where I released everything on her, and in a very unprofessional manner - worse yet, a very un friend like manner ( Read more... )

Its only cries when I want it to rain ( Read more... )

Im not so sure of what I am anymore. I know what I want to be, and who I should be...

But still... I dont know... I just dont.
Its funny sometimes, it is to me. Not really, but laughing saves off the bouts of crying. And the best way to sum everything up in my life right now....

I dont know.