fukking love and bloody hate

[fjortisprinsess]

It just took some days for Johanna to get boyfriend and girlfriend with Henrik. And it makes me ill, sad, bitter, angry, lonely, disappointed... nothing feels right. I can't express my self in english - but they have done me wrong. Very wrong

Comments

[anonymous]

sometimes i really think if you all play only nice little theater in this livejournals. its like an own world in internet where the strangers have the same as people you know in real world...
i got used to watch your swedish guys journals, because i developed a strange fascination for your arrogance and conceit.
so, now you finally you made a dramatic statement what i was even waiting for. this online diarys are a very odd thing. people adore girls and boys, (or at least they say it) without knowing them at all.

schuko

[fjortisprinsess]

if you like: please explain.. i don't understand anything.

[pussinboots]

I didn't get it either :P

Arrogance and conceit sure made me lift an eyebrow though. Those surely are not words I'd just to describe you.

i wear black on the outside beacuse black is how i feel on the inside

[ojos_de_papel]

na...there's nothing you can do except cry and stay depressed. you know, it'll pass someday. if she doesn't stay with you is because she doesn't deserve you. maybe your too much for her.

maybe not.

but probably yes...that's why she can not appreciate you.

i don't know if i believe this but i try to because something similar happened to my recently.
va...what the hell...i bet you give a damn. but i wanted to write it somewhere and not leave it just as a stupid thought.

[toverdosis]

Aw I feel so sorry for you.
I wish I could do something for you instead of giving virtual hugs and stuff.
Be happy soon, I like your journal and I added you too.
I hope you don't mind.
~x~

[toverdosis]

I know how you feel... though I suppose you feel like nobody can know what it feels like (that's how i felt). Life is cruel sometimes and so are the people in it. I have read your posts and looked at your Elfwood galleries for a long time now. You seem like a very nice and intelligent person. If she can't remember that then she doesn't deserve you. I feel for you. I don't know if this means anything to you but I hope it makes you feel better. Huggs 2 you

Love,
Misery

[anonymous]

Well, it seems to me that you want her to say sorry so you can reject her. You want to feel like you're the one in power. You want to feel like you're the one she wants, but you're too good for her. You know what I mean? Well, what I say is, get over it. If you really love this girl, tell her. Go to her and beg for her back, it may not be pretty but it might be necesarry.

[fjortisprinsess]

No - i don't know what you mean. But:

I think I want her to say sorry because i think that she should and i want to forgive her. I can't be her friend if I can't forgive her. And I want to forgive here because I still love her and I want to look back on our 2,5 years relationship and think it was good. There is more than that: I want that she could regret what she have done... and possible more reason that I can't understand myself. It's a lot about my ethics and feelings.

Of course I want that she wants me but because I want her. But i don't think it's anything about that I'm to good for her. She stoped love me and I think that's sad. I can't be bitter about that. It's the things around that I don't like.

And i don't care if it is unpreatty begging. I don't know if it is.

[anonymous]

Beg for her back if you love her, but don't sit on your wonderful butt and complain that she isn't throwing herself at you...

[fjortisprinsess]

I don't know if I have begged too little. But it if I have; it has nothing to do with that i'm lazy. I don't know who you are and if you know anything about if I have beg for her back or not...

But I don't complain about that she don't throwing herself at me. It's not that this is all about.

[anonymous]

Eugh!

Martin, regected? how can this be! You know you are the most beautiful thing on earth! I think I understand that you feel this way, but you cannot.. it will only make you feel worse. you should be happy and forget the break up because.. you deserve to be happy.. and it kind of breaks my heart to see you so sad. even though i don't know you well and you don't know me well. blah.. i just saw some fotos of you and heard storiies from persons. so ok, forget everything bad.

[pretty_death]

i suppose it's very easy to tell somebody to forget the bad things and be happy when you don't feel pain yourself. i don't know if you do or not. i just wanted to say that because this be-happy-stuff seemed very wrong to me. pushing away things is never good.