JUST A THOUGHT....

[fklkelley]

I've been lying. Yep I've been lying to you and you and you and everyone else too. And I just don't care anymore. I've even lied to myself.

Gosh it wish it was summer again. it's like everything changes in the summer and everything's so much better.

blah......

I'm going to work.

Comments

[peppa2007]

does he still have ur heart?

[fklkelley]

You really want to know the truth....I love him more than I love anyone, I love him more than I love myself. So yeah I guess you could say he has my heart. But I went for months watching him date other girls, LOVE other girls and this pain....yeah I've gotten use to it. If he's happy, I'm happy for him. No matter what he's doing or who's he doing and me.... I'll go on being happy just saying hey in the hallway. Because I guess thats the way it's suppose to be

[peppa2007]

When I wrote this entry, it had nothing to do with Shawn....it had to do with actual summer...I hate the cold, it makes me sick and sad.

!Felicia!

[peppa2007]

Im so sorry! I didnt know it was going to make you mad. I appologize. I just didnt know if you felt the same way I did. Cause I know he ruins our lives and takes our hearts with him.

[peppa2007]

sorry X 500 million...I cant explain how sorry I am felicia...Im not mad at you about loving him, or jealous or anything, if anything, I am in the boat with you...God I never intended for you to be mad at me....I am a shitty kid sometimes, and Im sorry that he is the ass he is....Im on my way to church..and I know my prayers do not touch the ceiling, but Im going to pray for you...and Im sorry..

I dont love him, but I miss him. Im sorry...I hope your heart gets better.