i have some regrets

not that anyone cares

i think i may have made a big mistake....

im very tired of my low self-esteem and second guessing.

to quote a good friend, "this whole depression for my art thing is getting really old"

and i don't even have art...just really done being depressed all the time.

i'm really sick of hating myself.

i feel insane.

i don't understand why i am so paranoid. even when it comes to my friends... i make no sense.

i've never felt so alone before...

what the fuck is wrong with me?

i refuse to live the rest of my life like this. something has go to give.

but i was just wondering if you missed me too

i gotta get out of here.

i am so bored at work today i dunno what to do with myself ( Read more... )

chances are you are pissing me off.

just get that chip off your shoulder and shut the hell up.

steps forward right? i'm scared they're not. most people think i am nuts or dramatic. probably so but oh well. now what? i feel like there is just more for me. i'm probably wrong but how do you know? so here i go...or maybe not.

p.s. i start at nbc tomorrow. wish me luck cause god knows i need it.

what a weekend! do you think you all could have hit me even lower?

thanks.

i guess its better to know then to not to. but are they right?