My Life AS...

[flameelf]

"I need to silence my most reliable way of gathering, processing, and expressing information, I need to put more effort into controlling and deadening and reducing and removing myself second-by-second than you could ever even conceive, I need to have quiet hands, because until I move 97% of the way in your direction you can’t even see that’s there’

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[stgabrielskiss]

You are not alone. It's one of the reasons I've withdrawn so deeply from everyone. People... aren't good for me. Maybe a few rare people, in limited contact, but... no, not the general populace at large.

Just try to remember that you aren't a "wrongdoer". It's been my observation that society has become overly sensitive and judgmental and deeply personalizes every single thing imaginable. People take offense at anything and everything anymore, and anything said (even a simple "How are you today?") can and probably will be taken as a personal attack in an attempt to somehow belittle, demean, and/or oppress whomever you've spoken to... or whomever happens to overhear you speak. I have theories, but they aren't important.

I'm rambling. Sorry. I'm not used to communicating with actual people anymore. I guess what I'm trying to say is this: It's not you. It's them. You may carry an Asperger's Syndrome diagnosis, but THEY are the ones who are, for lack of a better term, broken.

Be strong. Be well.

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[flameelf]

Love you, My Angel!

Grey :)

[flameelf]

You're not posting any longer. Hope you're out there, somewhere...love you!

[stgabrielskiss]

No, I've not really been in a sharing sort of mood for a few years. Every now and again I consider making or actually do make an attempt, then decide my limited energies are better spent elsewhere, partly because people suck and I'm tired of dealing with them. Even people who know me offline have commented about my increasing silence. The number of not-related-to-me people I communicate with on a regular basis can be counted on one hand, and with most of those "regular basis" is defined as "contact lasting longer than 10 minutes or a handwritten letter at least once a fortnight".

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