i'm trying not to let it threaten my sense of self that i spend the better part of some weekdays creating mail merges.

much has happened since i last darkened this cyber-hall. among those happenings ( Read more... )

you may or may not have been wondering where i've been for the past week-ish, but we moved. no more lee road & stupid traffic & drab city. the trailer is now encircled by ben's & my version of paradise: trees, ferns, vines, moss, etc. and raccoons & a grey fox. also about 700+ other trailers, but nobody bothers us. anyway, we really like it out ( Read more... )

no matter ( Read more... )

...sometimes life is hard.

i have fewer reasons to complain than most.
my discontent most likely stems from misplaced hopes & ill-chosen sources of happiness.
circumstance does not amount to anything but a moment.
i need to rest. i need to move. i'm overheating.
revelation is the craziest freaking book of the entire Bible.

my hope is built on ( Read more... )

( frog and toad are friends. )

did i mention i got my bachelor's in trailer maintenance?

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( ...i can spend more time on really worthwhile things. )

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trying to:
let down the fences. be weak. allow for time-"wasting." dance, even alone. remember the future comes fast enough. relish the meantime. know which impulses to obey. remember nothing here is supposed to satisfy me. demand more of myself than of others. love more. love better. stop being so vague ( Read more... )