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flashybonz

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Feb 19, 2006 23:14

I haven't been in the mood for human contact all that much these days. I'm at that point where I know this is going to take me away sooner or later. I can't hold myself together much longer, even If I tried. My body is fighting me, and somewhere in the back of my mind I know this is what I deserve for all those years of abuse. It's a sad waiting ( Read more... )

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apickleddream February 20 2006, 07:39:20 UTC

"this isn't life"

Then fight it, you are better than this disease!
I'm fighting too, everyday is a struggle, but I'm not giving up, don't you

flashybonz February 20 2006, 11:34:14 UTC

just to clarify, sorry if i didn't but i'm not even really actively engaging in any behaviors...it's jut the repercussions of behaviors. it's like my body is saying it's 'final fuck you' to me.
I'm actually doing ok ed-wise...just no one would know it.

apickleddream February 20 2006, 15:24:54 UTC

I hear you!
Mine is too, I was in the A and E last Saturday with my heart flipping out. On Friday I was offically diagnoed with osteoporosis, and I have been in partial hospitalization for the last month. My body is giving up on me too

**hugs you**

Remember when ED's held mysteries and wonders for us, and we thought that they might actually help us cope?

I know for sure I was TOTALLY wrong about that!

evenstar253 February 20 2006, 07:54:29 UTC

(((hugs)))

demainsdeslaube February 20 2006, 08:29:42 UTC

Wow. Nic, you're just waiting to die?

I swear I won't allow you to do that. If you don't get your ass IP or SOMETHING, PLEASE, find a good ED program for you, I swear to fucking god I will steal money from my parents, get on a fucking plane, come find you, and escort you somewhere you need to go.

You can't just die, Nic. DO something.

fairpoppet February 20 2006, 17:13:30 UTC

life was never supposed to be like this. Somedays i feel my body dying. And yet we don't do what we need to do. (and when we do, it feels like it's too little too late) i hope it really isn't

tough love from lil sis anonymous February 24 2006, 00:31:39 UTC

uh, yeah, just so you know...
this current state of big sis' being is totally gonna ruin our plans for world domination/narcissism and such. so you're just gonna have to think outside the box and find some way to rectify this situation because we have lots to accomplish in this lifetime, and i will be thoroughly pissed at you if you do not join me in accomplishing said plans.
p.s. another fyi: "i'm not really even actively engaging" is NOT the same as "i am not engaging". how about "not engaging", big sis? you can do it.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO even when im kicking your butt.