Funny how the mind works

[flausious]

The mind never ceases to amaze me...

So, long story short, yeah..he fucked up. Did something he never should have done, broke my trust and sent me off flying into a ball of confusion.

We talked..or..rather -I- talked..he just sat there...pale, shivering curled up like a bunny in front of a tiger...

I thought I was ok with what happened...that I had

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[redslurpy]

a few years ago something like that happened to me only it was a different situation but the same effect

[flausious]

I guess you hit the nale on the wall...

He`s scared to death that I will end this because of his little adveture, and because of that he`s totally in a stand still...He said so himself..scared of saing or doing the wrong thing...
It only results in him not doing anything...

It was not a big deal..but he lied about it..I found out..and he kept on trying to hide it. That made the doubt grow in my head...and that is what I`m fighting with now..trying -so- hard to trust him again.

[flausious]

thanx..but it was never an open relationship...ever...

Shure there were flirting and looking...but we trusted eachother 200%...we knew that the other would never cross the line

that trust is gone...

[apori]

Oh :( *hugs you* I'm sorry to hear this.
This is definitely a time for you to worry about yourself and try to figure out what you really want. Like you said, you can't force a feeling, so unless you feel something, don't tourment yourself in the mean time?

[flausious]

Only time will tell...

I thought things were beginning to go back to the way it used to be..

I guess I pushed it to fast..and it hit me that I`m not ready for this yet...