Remember when you wrote about me? Reading back makes me wish I could travel back in time and undo what happened between us. Was I your biggest mistake? I miss him today. It was the first day we've spent apart and I'm close ripping out my hair. I need you like a bad habit and I'm getting more frantic without my fix. Come home to me baby, it's where ( Read more... )

I'm wide awake, haven't tried to sleep. A lot going through my head, waiting for Chris to come in, taking things one day at a time. I never was a patient person, I probably never will be. I have patience for one person and that's the farthest test of my patience ever, and to have it survive is a miracle in itself. I don't know why he's so eager to ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of dealing with these emotions. I'm tired of my feelings only being real when I'm home alone. I'm tired of hiding how I feel to protect you. I'm tired all over again. I'm deleting my myspace and soon my facebook because I realize my mental and emotional health are much more intact when I stay away from them. I've never loved anyone ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired of faking being happy. I can't seem to catch a break in life. I couldn't even buy my car today. I want a life that isn't my own. I want a life somewhere away from here. I think I'm gonna quit my job and move away, I'm about to pay off all my credit cards anyway, I rly have nothing left to work for ( Read more... )

So I'm pretty down today. It seems like all my good days are followed by bad ones. I haven't talked to my dad in a while, but I'm pretty pissed with him. He's been stressing my G pretty badly and though she's his mom before mine, I'm the one taking care of her. That woman means more to me than words could ever say. I'd be a poor excuse for a person ( Read more... )

I'm calling for you but your answer is lost in translation. You fall hard for anyone who promises to love you back. Well, this time, don't expect an open chance to come crawling back. My heart had all it was able to handle before you came along and gave it an overload of disaster. Worst fashion but always in the best of taste. You obviously don't ( Read more... )

...is good. I'm happy, work is good, I'm looking forward to school, both of them, and I don't think there's any other place I'd rather be right now. Life is falling back in to place, though I don't know how long it will last. Jen is coming in next month and I'm really happy about that, my last bit of Michigan is coming home =D It looks like ( Read more... )

I LOVE you, always, and I'm so glad you've come back to me. I never thought I was strong enough to whether the storm <3

Is complete agony though I do my best not to show it. Why can't you be honest with me? and if you're honest with me, why can't you be the same honest with everyone else. I don't know which side of you to believe... Honestly if this is how it's going to be, I don't want either side at all.

And fight I do, but some times you have to give up, and step back and let things go a little bit. I'm at the point where the cleaning crew has made the site of the accident look normal again but the memory of what happened is still on people's minds. Some analogy huh? So I've been on an AFI kick recently. I still love them, a lot. The more time I ( Read more... )