Week 9: The Better Half

[fleeceblankie]

Think I'm going for a walk now
I feel a little unsteady
I don't want no one to follow me
Except maybe you

Every time I hear the words "better half," I automatically think of this song. "Untouchable Face" by Ani DiFranco.

I could make you happy, you know

Comments

[funnyfreckles8]

I'm really sorry you had to go through that but it sounds like you have done some serious "sole searching" and learning about yourself that in the end will hopefully lead to a more positive experience next time. You won't ever forget it but the sensitivity of the wound goes away slowly. You never know, you might be able to rekindle the friendship after awhile. Good luck.

[kiwiria]

Been there, done that :( And you nailed it perfectly. Well done on what must have been a difficult post.

[ickletarakins]

I sort of know how you feel. Although in my case, I was always wanting a person whom I'd already had. He left me, didn't want to be in a relationship with me, but then would come crawling back, wanting to be friends, and eventually things would progress and we would be more than that...regardless of whether or not he was in a relationship. I've also been in the other shoes--the shoes of the person who had an ex or a friend who wanted me, liked me more than I liked him. I think any time a person knows that you care for them more than they care for you, it is hard for them to do what they NEED to do and tell you to move on, then leave you be. Because everyone WANTS to be wanted, and that makes it difficult to do the right thing.

[fleeceblankie]

I'm not sure how I define it, or if I even believe in it. I know, that doesn't help.

One thing I certainly don't believe in is "unrequited love." The idea that such a deep feeling (in name only) is not reciprocated bothers me. So to me, love is something that's returned. That much I know.

Otherwise... I think it's one of those things I can't know until I feel it. I don't want to blame the lack of label on any prior experiences (like this one) on being young, but... Well, I was young. It wasn't something that crossed my mind then, and I don't think it's fair, after all this time, to use the benefit of hindsight to call it something that it may not have been.

I make no sense, hah.

[phoenixejc]

Ah! One of my favorite songs! Nice entry; I appreciate how open you are and how much self-reflection went into the piece.