well isn't my life just a ball of joy. haha NOT. well I woke up to a bundle of shit this morning, I find out amber is probally going to have to put off her move one more week. I am going to burst if I have to wait any longer to hold her again. God I feel so alone, esp. in a house that is seemingly against me. I still cannot find a job, I swear to ( Read more... )

I need a time machine to go one month ahead NO ONE IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN SHIT HOLE WILL HIRE ME! fuck this

sometimes I dream of that long fall

I don't know what it is, maybe a combination of things. This sudden life change is weird. I am out of touch with a world that I have grown to know and love. I am 1360 miles away from the one I love (by my route). I am trying to quti and cut back on alot of things in my life, plain and simple drugs! I am having to face alot of scary facts about ( Read more... )

ok me and my friend sam were having a convo and I thought it worthy of a post ( Read more... )

My fire-written by rick park ( Read more... )

Ok, I am really ugly now, sorry amber my hair will grow back soon enough. well yea i shaved my head and got rid of my mohawk. For reasons of getting a job. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Not having hair is ultra gay. I even shaved my goatee' so I am like this nude ass bald baby thing. Haha, ok really someone give me and amber 500$ so she can move ( Read more... )

I am scared shitless, I need money in the worst of ways, If I cannot get a job in the next three days I am not sure if amber will be able to move down in time. I am really a fuckhead, I can't get any job. Ha, i didn't even get hired at mcdonalds amber told them to hire me. I am quitting ciggs and cutting back on pot, I am such a scumbag, I need to ( Read more... )

1.Have you ever been in love? yes

2.How do you know it's love? I know how it feels

3.What makes you fall in love? everything she does

4.What if your girlfriend/boyfriend is a bad kisser? she's not, I think she would be better without the ring but it works for otherthings

5.What turns you on (at 1st sight)? eyes, hair, her

6.Are you the ( Read more... )

ok well where to begin in my 'o' so eventful day. Well first I want to adress something with amber. Everytime I talk to her on the phone she is sounding worse and worse as she is slowly dieing. She won't tell me what's wrong and claims that she is always just tired and bored. I wish you would come out and state how feel babe. Pinpointing emotions ( Read more... )

well I am here and my stuff is still not, so I figure I will amuse you all you some pictures they are not much but hey. I miss amber so so so much she needs to hurry up and get her pretty little butt down here (start running) haha ( Read more... )