the house life has gotten so bad that today i actually forgot what month it was. doesn't that say something.

and today i'm going into work an hour early. so i can do math homework. thats how much i want to be at home right now.

it's final. i waited too long and now it's over ( Read more... )

maybe it will end soon.
or maybe it will start soon.
either way i hope something happens pretty soon.

somebody leave me a message. its almost calming to think people appreciate me.

last night i came to learn that what i thought i finally understood was absolutely wrong and life really really sucks. i'm really confused. and i have no idea what i was thinking about asking sam out. i think i was just confused about the other thing and that was a way to stop....? maybe. i dunno ( Read more... )

i am happy. i understand a lot more now than i did when we got out of school today. i'm fuckin stoked about that one.

i think i should ask out sam again sometime soon. any input?

yeah. thats what i thought. peace out ckrakc

i dont have anything to say.

is there anything anyone else has for me to say?

because i have nothing to say.
i'm too blank to say anything.

i guess i could write a poem to somebody.

give me a poem to write for somebody.

This should be interesting:

You can ask me three questions. Any three, no matter how personal, private or random, I will answer them honestly. BUT, you must post this in your LJ to give your friends, including me, a chance to ask you 3 questions.

ehh u dont really HAVE to post it in your LJ...

it's wierd...now my life is all fucked up.

and yeah it's bad, but there's nothing really wrong with what it's doing to me.

fuck.

but it's making me happy--in that everytime i see her my day brightens up.

but it's fucking me up------in the everytime she leaves i get all fucked up again.

plus i'm not even sure if she looks at me like i think she ( Read more... )

i'd tell u but i'm not gonna fuck it up.

but she is perfect...

i finally got MY computor working again so now i can get on as often as i used to. i seriously hope my sister dies a long, slow, painful death. my shrink is still pretty annoying ( Read more... )