the aliens have hacked my brain, or something

[floatingleaf]

I still find it difficult to make regular updates here. I'm not sure why. I seem to have lost any interest in recounting the mundane details of everyday life. And what I actually WANT to talk about still seems a bit of a departure, a potential "WTF factor" for some of my regular readers. Perhaps it would be more appropriate to start another blog

Comments

[shadow8740]

Weird, I was just writing about meditation (of which I have a love-hate relationship with) right before reading your post...hmmm. Are you aware of acceptance and commitment therapy (ACT) or Eckhart Tolle's teachings on mindfulness (famous books "A New Earth" and "The Power of Now")? Steven Hayes has a good ACT workbook called "Get out of your mind and into your life"...lots of useful techniques and exercises about connecting to that state just below the surface in the preconscious mind. Well, there's the information if you decide you want to check it out in the future.

Hmmm, I'm going to go with: it's the aliens'fault. They are responsible for all this madness! ;)JK Seriously though, kudos to you for all the changes you are making!

[floatingleaf]

I did see your post. And I totally understand your love/hate relationship with meditation. I had the exact same problem when I tried it before: I just couldn't focus and quiet down my "wandering mind" for more than a few seconds at a time. However, the audio recording I am using now just automatically puts your mind into a meditative state after a while - even if you don't consciously focus on it. So that helps a lot.

I've heard of Eckhart Tolle, but never read his books. My "to read" list is getting frightfully long, btw - and I am at a loss where to start...;)

[gaia_child]

I read each of your posts wih equal interest and I'm not planning on getting rid of you:) In fact, I'd feel awful if you abandoned your journal...

Did you lean all that stuff about 'broken tape' playing old patterns all over again only recently?

Yesterday I found a piece of an old diary entry from my teenage years. It said what stuff my mom told us when she was angry with us: "it's all your fault (dad's drinking problem") and showed how much I hated her and feared her...I wasn't even aware that I was SUCH a mess inside:unloved, shattered, angry, guilty, fearful...also explains why I had been such a shy fearing people creature. I'm not very confident with people till this day. But I'm much happier and calmer soul:)

[floatingleaf]

Did you lean all that stuff about 'broken tape' playing old patterns all over again only recently?Well, not quite. I suppose I was aware of the concept - I just didn't realize, until recently, that it might be possible to erase/change the recording

[webgirluk]

I found this entry interesting and I too relate very much to that "running tape" and am often thinking through the triggers, which I feel probably get clearer to me over time as I get older. I like how you're trying meditation. I can imagine how there's a lot more to it than it just making you feel more relaxed and I look forward to following your journey with it and learning more :-) Maybe it could be useful for me to try.

[floatingleaf]

I've been playing around with the idea of "trying meditation" for years, actually - I was just never able to make a habit of it, mostly because it felt like I couldn't focus, or didn't have a clue whether I was actually meditating or just sitting there feeling stupid.;) Now I know my mind goes into a meditative state, because the audio recording I am using is specifically designed to have that effect. It actually claims to provide all the benefits of deep meditation EIGHT TIMES faster than the traditional way of doing it. Which is why I decided to give it a go. Of course, it will still take time to see any profound results... but, supposedly, in a few years I can get to the same level that Tibetan monks achieve after decades of meditating several hours a day. Well... we shall see.:P