self destruction

[floatonallright]

It seems really weird for me to be saying this, well, really, admitting this, because I'm very anti-people REALLY helping me.  Support is all well and good, and I appreciate my friends and those who support me greatly, but it's kind of rare when someone really makes me think about myself in a way that I haven't already thought.  I'm pretty

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[anonymous]

Hey, Here are my thoughts on the subject. Abandonment. While your parents were with you and physically 'there,' you felt abandoned from the-get-go. You knew, or felt, that they didn't give a fuck about you so why should you give a fuck about you? Even after you've realized that no body's opinion but your own matters, you're already conditioned to think negatively of yourself and to take your anger/pain/anxiety out on yourself, so it will take a lot of therapy or medicating and rest. This is just a suggestion. Keep in mind that the part about Attention Seeking, is a really ludicrous part of a diagnosis, attention seeking or not, if the child is partaking in these kinds of behavior, there is a problem with this child. Secondly, if they child continues to behave this way, without getting attention for their misbehavior, maybe it started out as a way to gain attention but felt therapeutic or as though it was helping, and became more of a habit then a behavior...I know in my case of self abuse (which started with words and just telling

[travel_lover21]

You could print this, or email it to your "buddy" (yes, he is your friend!) and that way you could start to get the help you need without having to talk about it before you are ready, if that makes any sense. Writing is theraputic for you and I think you have enough material to write one of the books you like to read so much. Just some thoughts.