no more smoke for me.
the question is:
how do I keep living?
I think I might've found
the best air to breathe
the best way to sleep
the best food to eat
but I've lost it all again
it's the littlest things
some faith
stupid needs
quality time
petty beliefs
such a perfect ship
such a perfect sea
stormcracks and all
of course you can't keep it.

res·o·lu·tion (rz-lshn) n.

1. The subsiding or termination of an abnormal condition,
such as a fever or an inflammation.

2. The act or process of separating or reducing something
into its constituent parts.

3. The fineness of detail that can be distinguished in an image,
as on a video display terminal.

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I'm in the undercover again and wishing I weren't so grown. I'm a selfish stubborn boy you won't talk to anymore. and if you won't talk to him, how can you talk to me? and if he can't talk to you, how dare he talk to me? I want the big open field and vows melted down to metal, wrapped around fingers, wrists, reminiscing -- it's not all for nothing ( Read more... )

the inside of my car is starting to resemble someone else's life. it's been happening for weeks now. a six-inch layer of silent rebellion: plastic water bottles, road maps, napkins, disposable cups with tea stains and to-go tops, a blue paper surgical gown, dirt, sand, CDs, cases, cards, sleeves, clothes, crumbs, souvenirs.. you think this isn't me ( Read more... )

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tell me this won't last.
all my strengths -
it folds

let me hear you say we're not right.
my faith, it sways
and I remain unmoved

I'm a million ways,
not one for you

I just want to hear you say the words.
is this why we do this to each other?
tell me we can both do better

I miss you something fierce right now. the injustice of an early moment spent slipping from your side echoes in smooth muscle tension and anxious eyes humming along my wires all day long. I'm a lightning storm wrapped in bright warm seafoam baby blue with daisies. hold me close. hold me tight. I'm not going anywhere without you.

(we were only)
one push to the next

if you could see yourself
tell yourself now
I'm looking for you

giving silence to the things I want
still rapt inside your lines
I'm a sucker for your unkempt chill
a kneeler every time

so lace me up my rusty gun
and aim it at the sky
just leave me with my limbs unfurled
and on my lips a smile