We live in a fast paced world where we can throw everything away and get more just as fast. We want instant gratification in everything in our lives from fast food to One hour photos. Where is the pride of preparing a hot rich meal and enjoying it with those you care about? We get so used to being a society where if it takes effort then forget it ( Read more... )

i bet i have like 4 blogs with that title! anyway i haven’t listened to one bit of music today as a challange. i feel antsy as a result though. not even the radio. makes me take notice of more things around me. i might be drowning out my thoughts with constant noice so i am trying to see what less noice is like. i thought a lot even forgot to go on ( Read more... )

weekend update! ok so friday i had a few plans that didn’t end up jumping off as planned. so i stayed home and curled up with a book...old dyke tales..haha. listening to music and poured myself a glass of wine. took one sip...finished one short story and feel asleep. i got calls and texts later beckoning me to come out for 50 cent wells but i just ( Read more... )

last nite i was walking from natalie's hooka to teh boiler room and atteh abby inn there was a homeless man dancing and making up songs. as i got closer i realized that the windows of the abby inn were oppen and this table of young adults sat there laughing and throwing swet and low packets at the man. they requested for him to get closer to the ( Read more... )

it feels so right sometimes. almost perfection almost like something i've always had and never plan to loose. my forever. just what i want and need. nothing to worry about...comfort. then i start to think or an event will happen and you get jolted and question your forever. is it pure fear or doubt? or are they signs? i think as adults wer ehave to ( Read more... )

and this isn't good at all. they are supposed to check for cancer in the lymphnodes but everysite i found says that stage 4 breast cancer has spread all around teh body already. i dunno how they determine dthat she had stage 4 wiothout checking everywhere else. sites are saying that this is more than likely fatal hardly any women recover from stage ( Read more... )

she's going to fall in love again!!! i'm not sure i'm ready for that. fiting back the tears. i didn't know i cared this much really i didn't. it' snot jealousy i figured out. it's dispear...forgetting all plans. she said she wanted to do whatever she wanted and not be tied down btu i know she's gonna tie herself down now to this person. and for ( Read more... )

why have i returned to this familar place ( Read more... )

I’m a fool and I continue to be. at least I wasn’t as much of a fool as I was the last time. I feel lied to used and broken. She told others how she really felt but not me and when she did I was already shut off. Already cold…and unyielding. I make a damn good actress. Ppl should worry cuz I’m a sneaky girl. U wouldn’t believe how sneaky…it scares ( Read more... )

i'm wearing a skirt as an entire outfit rite now an di wish someone would put lotion on my back for some reason. guess alex's fan feels super good and breezy on exposed skin. i woke up to tinkle and found all of these loevely ppl in my kitchen, marinera which ryhmes with panera, and jared and alex and my natty kat, and my husband as well. so i hung ( Read more... )