Just ranting
i am so sick of this journal. theres never anything good to write these days.
so instead im going to complain as usual.
emily for the entire summer and some of the school year, somehow got it stuck in her head that if i had a boyfriend then i would never hang out with her. or wait? is that the other way around? cause it seems when i got a bf she got angry that we didnt hang out, and then she got one and tells me she doesnt like me any more even though we have been friends for how long? 15 years? i dont even know. All summer ive tried to hang out with her, ive tried to be her friend, but if we were to hang out, then her boyfriend is there, and that means if they have an argument, they will drop everything and leave. so basically she ditches me to argue with her boyfriend. so fucking lame. if you get in a fight deal with it, dont leave with the person your fighting with if you dont want to be around them. its so fucking stupid. and i cant believe how dumb you are.
So basically what happened was emily says "to be honest i dont really like hanging out with you anymore but i do bc i love you" (pity what?)
and then she says "i grew out of being your friend; your to immature for me"
and before this she writes me some letter saying "i miss being friends, i miss the way we used to be, i need you, i wish things were back to the way they were"
but then i ask her to hang out and whats her answer "im going out with greg"
or if i invite both of them... they leave anyways.
and then one day i get angry and say "ugh i hate you"
and now SHE cant forgive ME. and tells me she needs time to think.
about what? if she wants to be my friend?
i think i should be the one thinking if i want her to be my friend.
she basically just told me she doesnt like the person i am and only hangs out with me cause she feelsbad.
what a load of shit.
i only hope she doesnt treat the rest of her friends like this. even though im sure she does, bc now, greg is the only important person in her life, and no one else mattered. i could fall off the face of the earth and the girl wouldnt notice or give a damn.
she says all this crap about how hes always there for her and its so amazing blahblkah
but i could have been there too. i could have been there for her.
if she would let me. but she wont.
so my "best friend" of 15 years threw it all away bc a relationship is much more important then a once in a life time life long best friend.
i dont think i deserved it.
and if one day she wants to be friends, bc of the fact shes to stubborn to accept it now, ill be to stubborn and bitter to accept it later.
your loss. maybe someday youll learn and regret it.