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The Summer of Drama Part 2
And So, with a brisk heart, I must admit, that I walked in the rain today. Best decision EVER. It was so wonderful, and a dream of mine since the summer began and the rains came. So, I walked through puddle after puddle, thinking about life. And it was worth it even if people thought I was crazy. Today is the day THE BOY is leaving me. We had a ( Read more... ) -
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The Summer of Drama Part 1
I am so mad at the boy today. He's evidently mad at me, which makes me mad because he has nothing to be upset about. So, I'm going to give him a choice. If he doesn't call before he leaves, then I am seriously done. So, it's his decision, he leaves without calling he'll choose that our friendship is over. And if he does call....I don't even know. ( Read more... ) -
Off the horse
A set back today. Suddenly I feel depressed again, but strangely enough I'm not quite sure what about. I mean, I do, but not really. Obviously, still THE BOY. And the hard part is that the person I would rant to is him, and I can't. I think I may have mentioned it all before but it keeps coming up in my mind. Like, I'm so upset, let me call Josh ( Read more... ) -
A New Day
I am much much better today I think. I think Jayme was the one to give me the best advice. She said that I just need to be sad for a few days and then I'd feel better. She was right and it made me feel better knowing that she said I could feel sad. And I thought about it today, and I was never really upset for me. I was upset for him. Because I was ( Read more... ) -
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Oh God the events of yesterday have yet to die down in my head, and now one word keeps resounding in my mind: Regret. I asked so many people who advised me on what I should do but never thought of what I wanted to do. I wanted to do nothing. But I guess they knew that it was killing me and that I should just put it out there. The thing is, I ( Read more... ) -
I wasn't finished
I had more on my mind then I thought I guess. Writing is my passion in life. It can get you wherever you want to go. I strongly believe it. Words can get you wherever you want to go. And that's why these things AMAZE me. I've been thinking today mostly about Josh (yes, the boy officially has a name). How I could've handled it better. But he handled ( Read more... ) -
Another Rainy Day
So today I told the boy I had feelings for him and he said, I'm one of the best friends he's ever had and he doesn't want to ruin it. He's a good kid. But it doesn't matter, because I still have feelings for him I'm not going to get over anytime soon. what a loon. lol. But I think I'll be fine. ::cries:: lol. But it's funny because I was thinking ( Read more... ) -
If only I could...
If only I could really say these things to Trusha. If only ( Read more... ) -
Summertime
Interestingly enough a new Nadia is emerging from the ruins of the old Nadia. For better or for worse I suppose. I've made some new friends in lab and realized, I used to be really good at making friends, before I stopped trying. That's just the thing. I stopped trying, I stopped worrying, and no regrets, but you can't change the past. The summer ( Read more... )